Despite the amount of flaws you’re certainly not lacking of, I love you just as you are. And with God’s grace, may you grow better in time. As much as I’m constantly in doubt of the country, home is still home and I’m happy to be bummed here for 17 years already. I’m a Malaysian donkey and proud of it! (:
Okay, so I really wanted to go watch fireworks tonight. But Curve hasn’t got the best ones in town and rumors have it that Klcc won’t be having any. Klcc has by far the best fireworks displays in town during Merdeka, and I go there to have a watch every year since a few years back. And I had really looked forward to fireworks. I love fireworks ):
Oh well, so I decided to stay at home and cook for the family. The process was fun but now I am just dead tired. I prepared a full-course meal for the five of us and I also did grocery shopping before that. So it really explains why I’m feeling so down right now.
I was only able to sleep at around 2 am last night. And I woke up at 3. Tried to sleep back. Woke up again at 5. Slept back. Woke up at 7 and gave up trying to have a good sleep. Probably because I spent the day before sleeping and doing nothign else after school.
Went to tuition at around 9.40 as soon as Najwa arrived. Class ended at around 5. Dropped Vivien at SS 2, reached home. Wanted to sleep but then my sister and brother wanted to go for a walk and get some groceries. That was when I decided to cook dinner. Walked to the shop, which was an ok-okay distance from home, and got all the groceries. Dad fetched us then from there.
So after a heavy load of grocery shopping, it was time to cook. Marinated the chicken. Sliced the spinach. Tore them into tiny pieces. Boiled them. Sliced the mushrooms into cubes. Made mushroom soup, while keeping close eye to the spinach from time to time. Grilled the chicken. Made the gravy. Prepared the spinach with butter and cheese. And not only was I doing it alone, I had to cook 2-3 courses at a time because I only started to cook at around 8.30 pm. Already very late for dinner. Finished the whole thing at 10. And du’oh after seeing and having to go through the whole process of making the food, I didn’t have the appetite to eat at all. But it was good. The soup could’ve been better. But I liked how the chicken was nicely cooked.
And now I am just too tired and down.
Eh wait, Tiya’s ringing me back! Yeay, girl talk time. Ciaociaociao ♥
I cried so badly when I saw the other video to this song. The version with tidbits of the film.
Just by watching the video, I had cried; The time when I actually watched the movie back then, it was just worse.
I wanna watch it again, first and last time I watched it was months ago and I watched alone.
I want a list too and mostly, I want a friendship like that too 
I had just woken up from a long nap (note to self: Go easy on the naps, duf! :] )
And I’m still very lost. I had a strange dream.
It was evolving around rainy days (this explains), a theatre school filled with strange characters resembling Alice in Wonderland and movies like Wizards of Oz.
Not only that, I was running towards the school in heavy rain because of it having a full compilation of all the songs in the world. That was cool.
But get this, I had a British accent. HAHAHA thf?
It also evolved around bouncing inflatable giant castles, kids running around, my watch which also acts as a camera and Kira! And also some other people I shan’t mention.
I so have to tell this to Kira.
To the person who called my house phone to talk to me, I’m sorry I hung up as soon as I picked up. And I can’t call back now because I don’t remember who it was. I was just too asleep.
Okay, I’ll edit this later. Still very lost after sleep. It’s common. I honestly won’t remember writing any of this once I’m fully awake. I’m very confused now so I think it’s time to continue a little more on the nap. Ta!
I am dead bored. And I had a blog visit due to a tag on tags. So I clicked on the source and I found some tags. And I just picked one out randomly. Okay, here goes.
A. Attached or Single? Attached to caffeine and the net right now. Oh shit, I swear I’ve got a good life.
B. Best Friend? I’ve got different ones for different timings.
C. Cake or pie? Cake. I don’t like pastry.
D. Day of choice? Fridays!
E. Essential item? Clear nail polish, ding!
F. Favorite color? Gray and red!
G. Gummy bears or worms? Bears (:
H. Hometown? Subang Jaya
I. Favorite indulgence? Just sleeping with the stereo/ipod turned on.
J. January or July? July. It’s the middle of the year! I’m halfway done and halfway undone! Okay, undone sounds tutt.
K. Kids? are never annoying and they have a good excuse for it. They’re always cute.
L. Life isn’t complete without? Complete senses.
M. Marriage date?
N. Number of brothers and sisters? One of each.
O. Oranges or Apples? Oranges.
P. Phobias? Too many. But I’ll list a few. Complete darkness, heights, closed spaces, large open dark spaces, lizards etc
Q. Quotes? Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies. -Aristotle (Sweet huh? And it’s a random one btw)
R. Reasons to smile? Things could always get worse.
S. Season of choice? Autumn
T. Tag 5 people: Najwa, Atoy, Vivien, Kira, Keer.
U. Unknown fact about me? I read my horoscopes often.
V. Vegetable? I eat my greens! (:
W. Worst habit? Sleeping my problems away rather than facing them.
X. X-ray or Ultrasound? Uhh. X-Ray.
Y. Your favorite food? Sushii!
Z. Zodiac sign? Virgo
Pah and Kira came over to study.
We did. A little.
Kira was funny because I had managed to find ‘mole’’s facebook and it’s just funny.
I learned a new place in the world called Karachi. Thanks to Kira’s ‘mole’. Another funny event was when Kira ran out of the door and we said our goodbyes and just then, we had realised, there was actually no one at the gate.
I had chicken for lunch. I shouldn’t have had chicken. I didn’t intend to have chicken. I don’t think I can ever be a vegan. It’s tough tough tough. It ain’t gonna work for me. But I can’t stand seeing chickens being killed. What would mother chicken feel seeing such incidents? Don’t ask me why I’m saying strange things, if you had a conversation with me yesterday, you’d know exactly what I’m saying. But Amanda says even if I don’t eat chicken, they’re still going to be killed. True enough, and I certainly am not able to run to a person and scream “Don’t kill the chickenns!”. Okay this is weird. But I can’t keep too many things inside anymore.
Right. Bye.
I’m going to play match-making now. Good luck Kira HAHA
I skipped school and stayed home because I couldn’t bare missing my bed.
Hahaha! Okay, no.
Studying is fun.
Time to go (:
P.s It really sucks to have to keep things on my mind rather than just clear it out. 8 weeks to SPM? 2008 is by far the worse year for me.
The weather is oddly unpredictable today. And as weird as it may sound, the weather does effect me a lot, in one way or another.
And I ended up muttering very very very simple mandarin in between lessons. Pn L was teaching physics and I can’t stop saying Hao, Laoshi (or however you spell it)
And Pikia’ was getting into the fun and she screamed “wo ai nii!” all of a sudden which I thought was funny. And I came up with a random phrase, courtesy of the friends I had made ages ago in tuition classes. Oh well, this happened:-
And I had just clarified with Vivien and tapiku means smacking of butts. So what I said was “I love you, smacking butts”. That’s dumb. I should take proper classes rather than go around and saying random phrases.
I told you the weather does odd things.
Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
Yes, unless if it goes overboard like a runaway marriage in Thailand. Ok right.
Describe yourself in one word.
donkey (it’s word of the day, it was either that or chicken) Random.
Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
It comes in a package,ding! Someone who really loves me would be the person I’d love as much (:
Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?
(:
Does it feel good to love?
It’s an oddly good, weird feeling ?
God is giving you just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special what will you say to that person?
I’d tell him heaven would be better with him around and that I’m sorry for the past and, to bloody move on already! (that is if he hasn’t moved on lah HAHAHA)
What will you say to someone who doesn’t want to believe you?
Uhhhh, okayyy, finee.
Was there ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
Not really.
What’s your opinion about someone who’s jealous?
Let’s share? HAHAHA kidding. This is my opinion on it –> :/
What can you say about playboys/playgirls?
Confused and they just don’t wanna fret too much.
Best place to cry?
Beneath the comforter.
Who do you love the most?
family, friends.
Tell us your dream last night?
-
Ever hated someone so bad?
Yes (:
The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
Things could always get worse so I have none for now.
The last person you had a beer with?
I only looked at a family friend having one, ding! 0:)
The last person you went to the movies with?
Family
The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
Tuition centre. ..
The last person you hugged?
Keerthana
The last person you yelled at?
-
In the last week have you kissed someone?
Nope
In the last week have you danced crazy?
(:
Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
Moments ago. I’m just too sick of everything (:
If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
To have things happen at a slower rate
If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
Paris.
Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
Yes 0:)
Are you old fashioned?
Hahaha
What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
Can’t pick
What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
Caffeine
Five things that scares me:
-God
-Deaths, mine or anyone’s
-Great heights
-Weird encounters (erk..)
-SPM
Seven Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
- Damaged
- 7 Things (-_-”)
-Why Georgia
- Sempurna
- Born for this
- Geek In The Pink (i’ve been missing this)
- Stolen (and this..)
Five words and things I always use:
Words: eff man, whaaaatt?, oh fuck off, uhhh, hehh.
Things: ipod, stationaries, laptop, glasses, handphone
It’s 5.30 am and the weather is very cold again today.
I am honestly out of words.
Probably because I don’t really like how things are now ):
And because I don’t feel like exposing things here.
I think I need my journal back, but it’s actually been transformed into a Chemistry/Physics Notebook.
I am reducing a lot on saying those bad words.
That’s probably the best thing I could say in this post.
Okay scratch all that away. It was a little too early for a blog post.
Seeya later, alligator 
