IMMA DO IT GOOD MA!

We had our last study group today at Faiqa’s. Najwa, Ira, Tiya &Abe were there as well. We were as usual, nut cracks and I just got *@!#!% because I realised we had forgoteen our plan to memorise the formulas for TPM together. We got carried away looking for tabs for Abe to try out and for us to sing to. Or was it just me? -_-”. Plus maybe the odour took our spirit of studying away. What odour you ask? Hahahah, I don’t wanna die now so I’ll stay shut :l

We studied, ate, went online, talked. And laughed because Abe was probably so stressed out that he was just not so, sane, anymore. And Ira and I was high for no obvious reasons, come to think of it, I always am and I hope Abe keeps his mouth shut bout what we said. Kalau tak, confirm embarassing k Ra? Photos will be uploaded later. But I think we only took shots of Abe acting mad. Hmmh.

Oh and, I thought I’d be able to focus better without my Ipod so I gave it temporarily to Abe whilst going back home since he was browsing for songs to play to then. And just minutes after getting into the car to go home, I miss it already. Okay, now I feel like walking to his place to get it back. Ok no, accounts accounts. Shit, I guess I’d have to do it tomorrow. Eff, why did I have to act so smart and pass it to him in the first place?

Accounts is tomorrow. I need all the amount of luck and blessings. I know most of you are busy partying right now while I am glooming lifelessly on my blog, but I really need all the luck in the world. Principles and I just don’t click. The only principles I could learn to accept are my principles. Oh God, Accounts is worse than Biology for me. I need to stay calm.

Bye.

p.s These were taken during Biology.

You can actually spot me here!

Supposedly here too. But Zuby’s major tall so I was blocked.. Well, I was bending down anyways. lol.

&yeahh, most of my mates were done with SPM this time. I was one of the few ones sitting for our 11th 4 days from this day.

You’re Good, You’re Gone.

I seem to always have a problem prioritising. My brains never do function first, but instead my instincts and feelings do. So everything is placed to the last of importance, everything but my feelings -_- Uhkkk.

On a different note, John Mayer just updated his blog with a post regarding baking. Okay, I sound dumb but he’s just so cute, and I don’t care if there’s a possibility of it being superficial. We all are. As long as the intention’s for good, who bleeding cares?

Other than that, I’m making a trip to OU for dinner with my family. It has been long since I’ve had make up on my face, my hair not tied up in a bun and myself dressed in something other than house clothes. 30 minutes left, must get ready to see the world! Ohh, it’s been just far too long. Wish me luck and pray for my Accounts, my loves.

Please come and help us raise funds! We’d seriously appreciate it. And, I promise you’d have a good time too! Hahah, and guess who did the designing? If it sucks, it ain’t me. lol, kidding.

Ok Mal, time to put every slight dilemma and thoughts on hold and in pending. Just 2 more papers left. Don’t screw up now. You survived without a breakdown so keep the good record! HAHA ciao

Move It, Move On.

Just one single subject to sit for left and I won’t be setting foot into school’s grounds again. Except when obtaining my results slip. I can’t believe myself that I’m gloomed by that fact. I’ve been dying to get my bum out of school since the start of the responsibilities and the tonnes of workload being forced to us, but I guess difference and change, well they bring significance. And things just won’t seem as normal.

No doubt, it’s gonna get a lot lonelier, without tuition classes filling in the daily gaps and 5 hours of having myself rot in school missing daily. As fun as it would be to be having the whole zest of life back again, things definitely will be different. I no longer would be having myself waiting anxiously to meet buds in school for a dose of what’s ups in each of our lives. Trying to stay awake during Physics, being cheeky and messing around with the teachers, banging my head on the grill behind the class when I laugh and rock the chair (Youuchh), glaring at classmate whom I find annoying. Plus I’d miss my routines. If you know me well, you’d know how I’m always on with the same routine of going up the same staircase when going to class and going down the one at the end of the first block when school’s out, plus not ever wanting to use other staircases thinking it’d wouldn’t bring good luck. Yes, I am tremendously superstitious if you’ve not known.

Not forgetting, Najwa, Tiya, Ira, Faiqa. Who the hell am I supposed to be going kinkyheheh with and sulk about life to? Just a month of SPM and I’ve spent myself 20ringgit each day on phone calls and text messages. I don’t wanna rot alone.

I’ve just realised myself over talking to Ira how different every person is but yet, we each would in the end find the people who’d see us as someone perfect and just ignore our flaws altogether. Every bitch, loner, jerk, would eventually find themselve that particular group of people who’d be able to accept them as who they are and amongst them, they’re all perfect. I guess we are if you think of it in that way.

No one’s ever going to be able to please everyone so closest you can get to being perfect is when you find that group you belong to. Stereotypes are subjective. A bitch to a person could be an angel to another. Well, thing is, to find that group it’s rather tough and I thought I found myself it and maybe I did. But then we’re 17, it’s still a long way to go if God doesn’t forbid. So yes, a journey it is. I guess after SPM, I’d do myself good by learning myself and the people I love better.

Au revoir.

Oinkwink.

I honestly spent today doing nothing more than sleep. I went online for a moment but the rest of the day, I had been sleeping. Eeeek, I just banged my elbow on the table, youuuch. Annndd, still yawwwwning. But I don’t think I can sleep anymore, I’m having the worse migraine noww.

I’ve got this problem that once I have a nap, I don’t wanna wake up at all till it’s dark. I slept at around 4. Woke up at 5. Slept, slept slept. And now my sister refuses to let me continue! I hope a shower would do me good. Still yawning.

Please tell me to study Accounts. On the other side of things, life has been boooring. You know once you have most of the things you need and might want in life, you get bored with it and crave for more from it. But I don’t know what else to crave for. I feel content and grateful for life as it is, in a weird way. In this weird way.

I am also pissed that my brother’s buds are hanging around the house 24/7, making me not able to walk around while looking like medusa in girls’ briefs.

Time to ciao. Pray to all your Gods that I’d study, HAHA I sound so dumb, such a simple task.

Evs, charciao.

My Loves.

Not everyone gets the opportunity to find that particular group of people you can share everything with. We might not tell each other everything but even so, we always know we’d have each others’ back at all times. If it wasn’t for that 11th subject I took, I wouldn’t have found them so I guess I’m happy (:

These are the ones I hang on and rely on when comes to opinions and advice. We drive each other up the wall but it always ends with “That’s just her, nanti okaylaah”, I guess we understand and know each other well enough. And I love every each of them for how they are. I’ll miss them so much and I can’t imagine life after school without seeing them weekly.

My Tangys! Jeez, I’ll never forget what we do weekly during Form 4. Wednesdays were party days. Movie marathon, Pizza, McDonalds, and we used to walk around the neighbourhood to get dvds and just food! We didn’t manage to take videos laah! ): I still remember screaming and running on the road and not forgetting the numerous times we got honked at by mother’s driving their kids home from school, hahahah!

Faiqa emo!

Biiiiiiiitch hahahah!

Irarararar!

I’ve known you since we were 4, Ikan!

Tiya doodled on Ronaldo, hahahah!

If it wasn’t for Mr Tang/the old man in the centre, (Yes, pimp!), The Tangy’s wouldn’t be existing.

Thank you Mr Tang! Najwa’s right, if it wasn’t for him, we wouldn’t be us!

Love ya, babes ♥

HAHAH GAMBAR TIYA SORANG TAKDE HAHAH!

John!

WHTF@W*#)@, just as I was about to go emo, I came across this weird thing..

Jonas Brothers covering John Mayer?

Disney Poop-Crap covering John? THF?
What what what what what? I look like this now –> O.O

I just had lunch and am about to puke it all out. I mean, I’m not anti-Jonas because lovebug was pretty cute and sweet. But honestly,

That is just the worst. Never in my life have I heard such a cover.

I am honestly about to cry because that song was just ruined entirely by that Nick dude.

Uhhh, ):
I’m sorry but fuck those bitches supporting lah. Hello? It stinks sooo obviously so stop going woohhwoohh~ and making him go on!

Okay, I sound a little overboard here but hello? Have you heard that cover? I swear my dad sings better and more decently!

To hate the Jonas Brothers more,

Yes, they ruined Coldplay’s Fix You too.

And, yes, Switchfoot too! Whtfk man? Bloody amateurs.

Okay, I’m scaring myself now but I feel like crying now. Dumb asses. They’re just the same as Akon and that dumb Sean Kingston dude. These people don’t deserve the fans man. Models look better okay? Eww jhadnhjasbdhj

Check!

I have only got Accounts 1 and 2 left until the reasons of my life would magically disappear. My 10 years of studying in high school had finally come to an end, the aim of it all is to end on the 1st.

I have to get myself a new goal and task. An objective. A dream, I don’t know ?

I have to get a purpose.

Anyhows, I did myself a personality test! (:

Things To Do After SPM

I ought to note this since I’ve got several on my mind.

1. Clean the room. Recycle. Donate.
2. Colour my hair.
3. Go to a sauna.
4. Get rid of the pimples I got through SPM stress.
5. Go to the dentist.
6. Get myself more soft toys (:
7. Tutor my younger brother.
8. Buy a new journal.
9. Write on my journal.
10. Learn something new.
11. Obtain my driver’s license.
12. Take good care of my hair, trim when necessary.
13. Not gloom and bum around.
14. Catch up with my old friends.
15. Cook something nice for my friends.

I’ll add on to the list little by little. Be angels and help me complete my goals k? I like company. Byelove.

Friends Neutralise Jerks.

Keerthana gave me something sweet and I guess it’s better than giving me a bitter guy.

Although I don’t know if I had actually forgotten how to smile, I like it. I love my friends (:

Ain’t I sweet? 0:)

Whatever

2 more to go. I can’t believe I got myself committed to 11 subjects. It’s easy for you geeks but trust me, having to cope with that, facebook, texting, phone calls, blogging, browsing for news, browsing on youtube, okay enough.

Okay I won’t complain and I won’t go against things from now on. I’m gonna let it all flow. I’m be nice yo.