If You’re a Major in any Disastrous Past of Mine, Don’t Click (:

MOVED.

DiamondCutsIII is located on a new platform.

Which I like better.

Click to be redirected .

Losing It.

The only fuckin’ thing is,

I’d have to be fixing this myself.

SPM results

Results. .

out in approximately one hour.

I’m scaredd. I woke up by accident and now I can’t sleep back. Chatted with Fahmi on facebook for a while and then here I am after failing to sleep for the 2nd time.

I’ve noted most friends to not ask what I’ve obtained unless an obvious glow is present on my face. Told them to read here since this is where I’d probably curse/laugh/cry/thank.

God bless us.

PeeyemAss

I feel like quitting work and rotting myself emo till results are announced and I get a move on with life.

Getting the paycheck real soon. First thing it’s going in would be this and also a new journal.

Major problem, I don’t have a bank account and I am not at all in the mood to be going through with the whole “alaa, apa you niiii?!” situation.

Uhciao.

God, Help Me.

Ira and I got ourselves a job to occupy our time with for this week. Thank you Kak Lin, thank you Ra! (:

It was fun and we went to Tropicana City for lunch and this dude I checked out from driving class actually works there.

I’m feeling extremely down and my eyes are already dried out. It seems like I’m an absolute immature to be feeling so stressed out over IPTA registrations but I really really don’t want to make the wrong choice. I could say I’ve always been careful in making decisions and the only time I’ve totally regreted something was once in 2008 and I still blame myself for it up till now.

I just realised how the IPTAs  that I want all offer the courses with Bahasa Melayu as the medium of instruction. You’d probably be thinking ‘What the fuck, you’re a bleeding Melayu so don’t fret about that’, I am good at understanding Bahasa Melayu when taught but I swear being understood when I speak formally in Bahasa Melayu is pretty rare.

This time it’s just me and I have no one to depend on. No obligations, this time, the only responsibility I’m holding is one to myself. I can’t let myself down.

Going to work tomorrow, and I don’t want sore bagged eyes to come along with me so I’m staying optimistic.

Wish me luck.

Quit It.

I
feel

pathetic .

I think the only good I’d do myself is getting time off from the internet, putting my handphone away for the moment, and just do things like:-

1. Go for my driving lessons.
2. Dye my hair.
3. Get new friends.

Number 3 is vital. I love the ones I have but yeah, if you’re a close friend of mine, you wouldn’t get offended by #3. I mean, it has been 3 months since I last met people that I could have random conversations with, and people that I had not spend my last 5 years with!

And again, I love my mates and all but never have I felt this irritated by the flow of things.

I want random!

And I’m definitely getting my hair dyed by next week! UMPH.

Hiatus.

A lot of people face the same bleeding problem right now. They all like to assume. Hey, if you have a question concerning the “What’s up?”s of my life, ask. I swear I could answer every single one of your doubts.

Stop

fucking

assuming.

EVERYTHING is pissing me off right now. If you think you could make it any better, text or call. I give in, I need people to make me feel better, and I admit to that.

I’m just lost :S

Like A Fish, Bloop!

Okay, thef with the post title? My life flows too quickly sometimes. It’s like everything is just a phase. I don’t like it. But I should be content, no? I mean, as how they say “when one door closes, another one opens”, well it does work for me that way.

And when I want something so badly, the next thing I know, I’m happily blessed with it. I guess I should be feeling content and luck is probably on my side at times, although I constantly deny it. But having life be so free-flow for me, it’s a little too, confusing? But there are times when everything doesn’t fall perfectly, when it just falls as a pile it was as before. When that happens, it stinks 101% more for me than any other.

Two things life so far has taught me:
EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
Karma doesn’t take sides but it operates like 7/11.

Ciao.

Tough Luck.

Of all times,

Why now?

How come everything needs to be taken too personally? I am an irony, deal with it and we’re great.

Hit Rewind, please?

As much as it appears to me as an irony, I don’t wish for the past so I’d have extra time to study, but just for small little things that shouldn’t matter at all to me right now but somehow they make me feel like shit and that’s not a very good term to be used but I just feel eskasjedet*#!. Or is it normal to have SPM bugging your mind in a sidetracked manner, or are the demons trying to distract me from what I’m meant to be doing? The last thing I’d want is to look back and tell myself “You should’ve studied just a litttlee harder”. And I know I shouldn’t be blogging at this point of time but better blog than have all this shit pile up in my head and think my whole day out. If I were to get a stress attack during SPM, that’s the end of it. Okay better not jinx it, it did happen during trials -_-”

Now honestly, I feel like mailing out a letter to Dr Love/Dr Education or John Mayer?(okay du’oh that was random ) to get any form of advice.  How the hell am I supposed to cope with this? Don’t the rest have other things to worry about other than studies? I mean, can’t be that the only thing running about in their head is SPM uh? Life couldn’t be simple but for once, I beg for simple -_-”. I don’t have the bloody time right now to think about what to do after SPM, if the bruise on my leg is to fade away, if I’m going to be getting a lot of wrinkles from too much of frowning these days, if there’s a reason why I’ve been coughing with chest aches for more than a week now, if I annoy much, if I should be more concerned about people, if I’m in the right path, if I’m doing the right thing with life, ? I guess everyone else has their life going around the same as I do just that I get a little too paranoid sometimes. Sometimes, uh. Who am I kidding?

I really should stop asking myself things like that. It should be more of:- How do you calculate the first derivative principle? or Where’s Naning in Malaysia? I’m tired hell of thinking and I’m screwed with my Bahasa Melayu papers, how am I meant to brush up by 2 weeks? I hope the person who marks my paper is used to moderate melayu with no extensive vocabulary. Must pick up a Bahasa Melayu dictionary today. Let’s not even start on Add Math. Jeng jeng jeng ? This is making me nutsakasnfdkjabf!

Bye ):