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My blog view for today increased tremendously.

I’m sorry to let you down by not posting my results up as soon. I got a little above what I had expected although not perfect as Amy’s was, I’m content. I really really am. I thank God, my parents, my teachers, my family. Without their love, I wouldn’t even have been alive to sit for the papers.

But honestly, PUSHING ASIDE my family members and my close friends, I’m really being nice in saying this (if you know me personally, you’d know I prefer to straighten things out, EVEN in cyber-space), it could be time for some of you folks to be growing up a little in the head. I can never get how people can be so stupid sometimes, if ever I get myself 11 As or even 11Gs, how the hell does that in any way affect your life? What’s in for me in the future, is mine. Not anyone’s. I don’t see you as a frikkin’ pop-up in my future so if you’re someone I know just by random and just by a few hellos exchanged, I really think you should start living your own life. I mean seriously, triple amount of blog views than yesterday? That’s a little overboard.

Okay, back to life. I got myself 8As. There you have it. I’m content, I’m happy. It could’ve been better, no doubt my class skipping routine in Form 4 has no doubt caused an effect to my studies. Studying in Form 5 never really was ample to cover up what I lacked off in Form 4.

Regrets? None. Well, maybe just very very a little. But I’m really really content.  Alhamdulillah. The feeling of content is something I would never ever trade, even for perfection.  I’m happy and what makes me happier is that even with my imperfections and flaws, I’m happy in my skin, I’m glad I’m me, I’m happy to be the person I’ve grown up to.

Went to Ira’s for pigging out session. Kira then came over. We headed to Tropicana City and met up with Harez. Played Daytona at the arcade and as expected, I lost. I was doing okay when suddenly EFFFFFF my car flipped and it was facing the reversed direction and there’s no reverse gear so I panicked and screamed. At least not as bad as Kira, HAHAH she wa sin second and Harez won. She actually thought the game was over so she screamed and laughed victoriously, letting her hand off the wheel. And then Ira passed her and she got 3rd place. I still got 4th. Car went reversed direction AGAINN during the second game. Headed to Ra’s and Dad fetched me later.

I haven’t really disappointed anyone I love, except Mr T whom I have yet to ring but Dan said he’d still be proud no matter what. I just don’t have the heart to tell him I didn’t succeed in scoring great for my Accounts. The other teachers I came to were happy and it meant so much to me, I really wanted the best for my parents and my teachers. Now everyone’s glad, including me. What a bonus.

Although the flaws are still there in my results slip, I’ve grown out of it, it’s time to move on with life and insyaAllah, I’ll grow up in the right pace, on the right track.

Thank you God, you have made me the most happiest, I know my results pretty much suck, hahaha, but I like what I’ve grown to become, I’m growing to a better adult and I will get closer to you.

♥ -amal

p.s Happy Birthday Pete Doherty! Although Tiya claims you’re sick inside because of all the drugs, I know you’re not. Hahahahah (:

I love Pete’s lyrics in everything. Ok goodnight.

SPM results

Results. .

out in approximately one hour.

I’m scaredd. I woke up by accident and now I can’t sleep back. Chatted with Fahmi on facebook for a while and then here I am after failing to sleep for the 2nd time.

I’ve noted most friends to not ask what I’ve obtained unless an obvious glow is present on my face. Told them to read here since this is where I’d probably curse/laugh/cry/thank.

God bless us.

End To The Wait.

I’m feeling ultimately lost right now. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t want to rise. I just got my very first pay-cheque today and I miss the people at Bangsar upon returning them.

‘haa, kau tolong mak lipat baju mehh!’

‘ha? hahaha, lepas tu letak plus dekat cheque tu ehh ‘

Mak btw is the she-male worker there. That’s what most of them call him and after some time there, that’s what he refers himself to when talking to us too! Sayangggg semua oranggg! (:

Watched a little of Watchmen with Ira and the flow was pretty slow, it was a well written movie, but not something to be expected from a superhero sort of movie. Too much talk, too little action. Headed to Muhibbah with Najwa, Hana, Ira, Faiqa anddddddd Atoy who’s back from NS! With tanned skin, not fully though, an inch from both her face sides is still fair, hahahahah! She was in her NS uniform and boots in OU. Kira fetched us halfway and we headed to Atoy’s.

Dinner was good. Kira sent me home and I got myself the longest shower, or as I had jokingly told Steph, I tried drowning myself but failed, hahahah. After soaking myself for long, and having my eyes turn red because of the water, I stoned.

And here I am. I’m really feeling lost and out of my mind.

What comes, must come. I have to be strong in taking anything. I really really just don’t wish to disappoint anyone, my parents, my teachers, my grand parents and everyone else. I want time smiling ear to ear knowing what my results turned out as.

Gotta text Ra now, need someone to ring me to wake up because I bet I’d be too darn scared to even wake myself up. I won’t be surprised if I end up sleeping or crying, I won’t be amazed if I’d chicken out.

Wish me luck loves.

Amal Zulkifar,
There are times in life when things just happen for a reason, and only when you’re lucky, you are aware of the reason which hids beneath it. There are times when you have to let yourself into a situation, even if that means you have to leave your hopes dangling in mid-air with a possibility of crashing down.  God does not neglect anyone, if ever there’s failure it’s probably because you’ve neglected yourself in the past but you always have an excuse to that, you’re human, not God.

Really, there exist times when you really have to cut yourself some slack.

♥ yourself.

And It Is.

I’ve just woken up from sleep. I could say I’m proud of myself with what I’ve achieved from working these past few days.

Made friends with people I’d NEVER ever even talk to; got to know that we’re really all the same despite the outcome we make in our lives. This bunch includes, getting bullied by  a technician and a bunch of lorry drivers from the warehouse that Ira and I would spend snacks on nearly everyday, conversations the big boss from the HQ, girl talk with a whole bunch of ‘pondans’, short random conversations with a random guy from this restaurant ever other day and knowing nearly all the security guards who work at that building that I even got a hello wave from one!

After all that, we’ll be transfered to Sunway Pyramid’s outlet. Zka the she-male claims that there’s a hottie working there, and also found out that my new manager is the gay dude whom I checked out upon the other day. So now I think my new manager is hot and not only is he my boss, he’s gay.

Work has been tiring but fun. We got back home at 8 last night, 10.30 the night before, 1.30 am the night before and 12.30 the night before. Mad huh?

I’ll surely miss Bangsar

Not Any Close.

Firstly, congratulations John Mayer for coming off with 2 Grammys, and both vocals :’) Yeah, I’m happy THAT much. And I raced right in front of the tvto watch the repeat show right as I arrived home from work.

The Kelantanese guy talks a lot. But I didn’t mind initially since I don’t understand a single thing he says so all I have to do is pretend to be listening and to be in to the conversation, while Ira just says “a hah, oh” because she obviously was annoyed with him.

It got scary after a while. I was busy standing while wrapping stocks to be scanned out of the shop and all he did was sit in front of the table I was wrapping the product on. He sat there facing me and stared up, smiled within gaps. It might not be altogether freaky but I am definitely the kind of person who tremendously hate stares. So it got really irritating!

I poked his hand with a pair of scissors because he wanted to be helpful by helping me wrap but that led to his hand accidentally touching mine everytime so I got annoyed and poked him off. He complained in Kelantanese and I just said sorry.

This happened between Z the sissy and me. Orange is me, pink is him.

*helps me wrap the package.

“er, tangannn”

“haa? kenapaa?”

“cuba tengok tangan, hahahah!”

“eeeeeeeh bencilahh! aawww, buruk dah tangan i! dah tak cantikk!”

“HAHAHAHAHAH”

Zh didn’t attend work yesterday and Ira felt happy since he likes annoying Ira. But I’d rather have Zh around than Zm since Zm is just plain creepy.

This happened at around 9 at night. We were busy looking at the people loading the trolleys to go down to the basement to load up the warehouse lorry. Yellow is Ira. Orang is me. Pink is sissy Z. Green is Kak R. Purple is the lorry man.

“nak tengok lorry! nak tengok lorry!”

“nak ikuttt hantarr! nak ikuttttttt!”

“okay, okay, bolehboleh, korang pergilahh tengok lorry”

“yayyy! dapat tengok lorry!”

“alaa, berat laa”

*race back to shop back after loading the lorry

“ni apa budakbudak ni larilari, tak balik lagi?”

“hahah! kita pergi tengok lorryy!”

“best lorry tu tengok, ada aircond semua?”

“haa? kita tengok tempat simpan barang je, takkan situ ada aircond, taktaula kan?”

“hahahaha *shakes head”

We are pretty pampered there.

Had lunch at La Bodega, looked under the Tapas menu and ordered one immediately. Realised that I ordered a piece of lamb. Ordered baguette cuts to go with it and it was a good lunch. Cute waiter was off for that day

I like night shifts. They’re really nice since we get to run around the shop.

Saw Hansen Lee who I used to watch on Breakfast Show when I skip school. He’s hot.

I saw 2 very very good looking guys at SDC. One was white. One was probably caucasian. The latter was so cocky. I’ve realised, hot cocky guys are only made to be checked out by girls, they’re not good men. I like dorks!

I went to Keerthana’s place today after seeing her coincidentally at SDC. We talked and updated on things, I’m happy for her and I hope everything doesn’t turn out bitter at all for her. Keerthana is probably the only person who truly knows the whole story behind my disasters of 2008. I wasn’t very much me, but I don’t regret any of it. The only regret I have is letting it all go off by not giving two shits about it.

I was dumb during CNY.

I miss a lot of the past right now.

That’s it for now. More later. Love.

Hello hello

Mentally and emotionally, I’m alright but my body seems to not be so. First day of work was work. It wasn’t something enjoying and neither was it a burden. But having a terrible fever after my lunch break (of which I spent ALONE wondering around the mall), things got so dizzy for me and my temperature got higher, the head ache nearly killed me! And one of the managers or supervisors who is a tomboy, shorter than me, big sized, wore a huge tshirt, tied her hair in a ponytail, laughed and said we both seem tired and are so quiet compared to how we were before, and she also mentioned how red I was. Blusher I had on my cheeks wore off by afternoon but I was practically redder than before because of my body state.

I had a Chinese lady asking me where’s the fitting room in Mandarin while I was doing my stocks. Her husband came to rescue the situation, or so I thought, he continued asking in Mandarin. I nearly replied in Japanese.

The supervisor agreed to let us work minimum 4 hours and that means flexible hours but that seems to be just sentences he muttered so we’d agree to the job.

Other part-timers managed to only work 4 hours a day without problems. We couldn’t. I think it’s workplace bully!

One of the staffs is super annoying. She’s nice to us but she says stupid things with awful words. She only speaks Malay and has what I call ‘mulut celupar’. She is old and has too much make up on and a weird hair do, goes around checking out the customers (she has good taste though, lol), and I’m pretty sure she’s not married and the reason why is obvious. She treats us according to how the policy is meant to be though, she backed us up when we told her about the hours. She hates that place a lot but has worked there for years and years.

Lunch time was horrible. I had an egg sandwich, one sushi roll and an ale. I had a fever and nothing in my tummy since early morning till 2. I had the ale just so I’d have sugar to keep me standing on my two feet.

I had stares from young girls while drinking the can of ale I had in Times Bookstore. They probably thought I was having beer.

The retail supervisor who called me and lied about the whole hours thing while asking us to please accept the job is a sissy, and he knows nothing! He arranged the clothes all in wrong sequencing and kept complaining how confusing organising the clothes according to sizes is. He also sings a lot of songs, stupid songs with even stupider lyrics.

He also goes around holding a top full of emborideries and sequins and puts it onto his chest and goes around the store acting like a female.

The cashier is also a sissy. And so is the guy who works in the men’s department. There was only one ‘real’ man there and he was being pretty chatty so I answered all that he asked (our names, where from, etc), after short questions, he turned flirty. He got budged away by our supervisor but he said he’d manage to get to know us tomorrow in a sneaky way. Annoying . I like nice people but not people who go abroad of things.

There’s a guy who works at one of the near shops whom Ira likes. He’s pretty hot.

I think one of this guy who works at La Bodega is cute. I was checking him out when he suddenly yelled ‘Good Eveningg’ while we were walking out of the mall. He’s really cute and we were both checking him out when Ira accidently raised her voice saying ‘La Bodega?! Apa tuu! Tak pernah dengar!’ after I suggested we go there one day. He definitely heard Ira -_-”

Abe texted me while I was hanging the clothes, telling me he’s looking at the Macbeth shoes and that he really wants it, with a ‘=(‘ emoticon at the end of the message. I replied at the end of the day complaining to him about work and telling him I’d ask Najwa bout the shoes later.

I definitely am out of people to complain to, and the statement above explains.

I also complained to my dad, and Najwa. Don’t plan to complain to Mama, she’d probably ask me if I wanna quit.

While having my lunch break ALONE, I saw my boss of the other office we work at (the hot one we usually check out) having breakfast with his son at Dome. I decided to get away since he’d probably ask what I was doing there and saying ‘I have a job’ is not a good idea since I will be going to the office to work next week.

I hope tomorrow would be a better day and the fever does not go on.

I think I still am in like with the past. I hope being busy makes me forget it all.

But not really right now.

Time for a rest. Wish me luck for tomorrow.

Ciao love!

p.s here’s a song I got to hear from the radio station Dad listens to. It’s a good song, and check out how many covers it has got! Nearlya hundred! Click

Like A Rainbow, I Like You!

I’m tired but everyone seems happy now so I am very muchh too *yawns

Office was funny. I don’t feel like typing now, maybe on a day when I get a day’s off I’d do. And I’d compile the funny moments into one post.

My mum’s going off shopping tomorrow but I’ve got the job to attend so she’s getting me a top or something while I’ll be earning my bucks at Bangsar. Parents seem happy that I’m not bumming myself out at home and that I’ve gotten the taste of working in an office. It is honestly the most tiring thing I have went through for consecutive days. I know now how hard it is for my parents to support the family, and I love them both so much! ♥

Mum was chatting on the phone with Aunty Teh and was teasing how I’d fit in with my job at Bangsar since I’m very much urban like  or really,  trying to be urban while impulsively spending off her money as if they grow on trees. Hahaha, but she was laughing and agreeing to me as I was sulking beside her for a new top.

I’ve got tonnes of paper cut on my fingers now

I wanna go bunk soon. First day tomorrow starts at 10. Hoping the chocolate dude still works there. lol.

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus is going to Singapore. Thinking if I should go. If I do, I’d have to skip both Mraz and Sunburst.

But for now, probably would go to Mraz but Sunburst really depends on my SPM results, lol.

Paramore in June, that’s a definite!

Genting plan canceled since most of us are busy and some parents don’t really like the idea of going up hill. Well, I guess it is pretty risky.

Hoping Singapore plan goes well. Also, not planning to spend off my earnings so soon.

Probably get a journal tomorrow at Times. Going to be a regular at that mall so might as well get a regular spot.

Love.

Oblivious .

I’m just done watching Hamlet 2 and it was effin good. Not truly recomended to devoted Christians though as some of the jokes were messing around to much with the religion. Especially the lyrics and the comical portray of Jesus.

I’m not too sure if I’m just trying to hide how I really feel right now towards the flow of things in life or if I’m just really sincerely happy right now.

Either ways, I still know for sure I miss the past and how unsure things were. As for the current, the end to this silence is pretty obvious and I still very much prefer how endless and unexpected things were.

Goodnight loves, hoping for a better tomorrow, -Amal.

Crazy Bitsch.

I’ve yet to post my New Year’s resolution and it has been a month!

Here goes:-

No.1 priority: Education.

Make sure my brother gets good results for his PMR.

Not waste one whole year on a person, 2009 is the year of productiveness, education here I come!

Leave 2008 behind. But patch certain things up when opportunity comes.

Appreciate the people I have and love them the way they are.

Get close to God.

Love myself for being placed in this very skin. Do what I love, and not take in account of perceptions from shallow people.

Ma’s agreed to getting me the Macbeth shoes and I don’t hope to be let down. So yay!

Will be doing the Loh Sang tomorrow at Ra’s with Vivien, Najwa and Faiqa. Probably Fifi too. Prosperity, babyyy!

Movie marathon tomorrow! I like stay-ins with my girlfriends

Visit to SriAman tomorrow, to deal with matters concerning education.

I’m addicted to Taylor Swift’s songs. Stay Beautiful is a favourite. But I’m still not sidetracked from my usual Babyshambles, John Mayer, The Cribs, Arcade Fire, okay?

I can’t wait till March. Jason Mraz is still probable, Sunburst too, my SPM results are a definite yes and as scared as I am, I can’t wait for a fresh new start! Other than that, Pete’s out with a new album by then! I love Pete!

Tok Cik called a few nights back and he’s okay with me doing Econs. Hopes for me to be able to fly to LSE but it really depends on my SPM results. I extremely do not want to let my parents, grandparents and Tok Cik down.

The weather these days is just too chilly. It’s chilling up my spines. And I really don’t like it, brrr.

I seem to be really happy these days because I’m really putting the past at the back of my mind. I haven’t gotten rid of them. Yet.

I miss being important! Debates in school tournaments, andd okay that’s probably the only important I was.  lol. Heyy, I was an ‘important’ friend too k?

Why does Princess Diana play a vital role as an image we look up to? I’m helping out a friend for a thesis.

I don’t like milk and I don’t drink it at all! But I love soy and yogurt! And that’s a random fact for you!

I had 3 exclamation marks in the previous sentence. Exageratted much.

I think the reason why I’m really happy right now is because I’ve updated my iTunes playlist and I’ve got tonnes of Babyshambles now and Taylor Swift is something new too. Bloc Party, Interpol, Arcade Fire, Wombats, Cribs, here I comeee!~

Peter Doherty’s songs are keeping me happy.

I can’t wait for the next minutes of my life, but it’s not exactly an adventure right now you see. I just am exciiiteeedd.

HAHAH Thank you Ribena, you do me wonders.

Okay, now here’s a song for you to take a lesson from!

I honestly do not want to stop letting out.

Later, loves!

♥

I miss a bunch of jerks right now and it’s not making me feel good