End. Start.

My blog view for today increased tremendously.

I’m sorry to let you down by not posting my results up as soon. I got a little above what I had expected although not perfect as Amy’s was, I’m content. I really really am. I thank God, my parents, my teachers, my family. Without their love, I wouldn’t even have been alive to sit for the papers.

But honestly, PUSHING ASIDE my family members and my close friends, I’m really being nice in saying this (if you know me personally, you’d know I prefer to straighten things out, EVEN in cyber-space), it could be time for some of you folks to be growing up a little in the head. I can never get how people can be so stupid sometimes, if ever I get myself 11 As or even 11Gs, how the hell does that in any way affect your life? What’s in for me in the future, is mine. Not anyone’s. I don’t see you as a frikkin’ pop-up in my future so if you’re someone I know just by random and just by a few hellos exchanged, I really think you should start living your own life. I mean seriously, triple amount of blog views than yesterday? That’s a little overboard.

Okay, back to life. I got myself 8As. There you have it. I’m content, I’m happy. It could’ve been better, no doubt my class skipping routine in Form 4 has no doubt caused an effect to my studies. Studying in Form 5 never really was ample to cover up what I lacked off in Form 4.

Regrets? None. Well, maybe just very very a little. But I’m really really content.  Alhamdulillah. The feeling of content is something I would never ever trade, even for perfection.  I’m happy and what makes me happier is that even with my imperfections and flaws, I’m happy in my skin, I’m glad I’m me, I’m happy to be the person I’ve grown up to.

Went to Ira’s for pigging out session. Kira then came over. We headed to Tropicana City and met up with Harez. Played Daytona at the arcade and as expected, I lost. I was doing okay when suddenly EFFFFFF my car flipped and it was facing the reversed direction and there’s no reverse gear so I panicked and screamed. At least not as bad as Kira, HAHAH she wa sin second and Harez won. She actually thought the game was over so she screamed and laughed victoriously, letting her hand off the wheel. And then Ira passed her and she got 3rd place. I still got 4th. Car went reversed direction AGAINN during the second game. Headed to Ra’s and Dad fetched me later.

I haven’t really disappointed anyone I love, except Mr T whom I have yet to ring but Dan said he’d still be proud no matter what. I just don’t have the heart to tell him I didn’t succeed in scoring great for my Accounts. The other teachers I came to were happy and it meant so much to me, I really wanted the best for my parents and my teachers. Now everyone’s glad, including me. What a bonus.

Although the flaws are still there in my results slip, I’ve grown out of it, it’s time to move on with life and insyaAllah, I’ll grow up in the right pace, on the right track.

Thank you God, you have made me the most happiest, I know my results pretty much suck, hahaha, but I like what I’ve grown to become, I’m growing to a better adult and I will get closer to you.

♥ -amal

p.s Happy Birthday Pete Doherty! Although Tiya claims you’re sick inside because of all the drugs, I know you’re not. Hahahahah (:

I love Pete’s lyrics in everything. Ok goodnight.

End To The Wait.

I’m feeling ultimately lost right now. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t want to rise. I just got my very first pay-cheque today and I miss the people at Bangsar upon returning them.

‘haa, kau tolong mak lipat baju mehh!’

‘ha? hahaha, lepas tu letak plus dekat cheque tu ehh ‘

Mak btw is the she-male worker there. That’s what most of them call him and after some time there, that’s what he refers himself to when talking to us too! Sayangggg semua oranggg! (:

Watched a little of Watchmen with Ira and the flow was pretty slow, it was a well written movie, but not something to be expected from a superhero sort of movie. Too much talk, too little action. Headed to Muhibbah with Najwa, Hana, Ira, Faiqa anddddddd Atoy who’s back from NS! With tanned skin, not fully though, an inch from both her face sides is still fair, hahahahah! She was in her NS uniform and boots in OU. Kira fetched us halfway and we headed to Atoy’s.

Dinner was good. Kira sent me home and I got myself the longest shower, or as I had jokingly told Steph, I tried drowning myself but failed, hahahah. After soaking myself for long, and having my eyes turn red because of the water, I stoned.

And here I am. I’m really feeling lost and out of my mind.

What comes, must come. I have to be strong in taking anything. I really really just don’t wish to disappoint anyone, my parents, my teachers, my grand parents and everyone else. I want time smiling ear to ear knowing what my results turned out as.

Gotta text Ra now, need someone to ring me to wake up because I bet I’d be too darn scared to even wake myself up. I won’t be surprised if I end up sleeping or crying, I won’t be amazed if I’d chicken out.

Wish me luck loves.

Amal Zulkifar,
There are times in life when things just happen for a reason, and only when you’re lucky, you are aware of the reason which hids beneath it. There are times when you have to let yourself into a situation, even if that means you have to leave your hopes dangling in mid-air with a possibility of crashing down.  God does not neglect anyone, if ever there’s failure it’s probably because you’ve neglected yourself in the past but you always have an excuse to that, you’re human, not God.

Really, there exist times when you really have to cut yourself some slack.

♥ yourself.

You’re Killing Me

Just like the weather.

Help. I have Chemistry Papers to sit for tomorrow.

Have to study. Feel so sleepy. Uh.

I had a little of Nasi Kerabu yesterday during breaking of fast and I suffered from severe gastric attack.

So today, I got myself another pack of Nasi Kerabu deciding to not have the sambal part of it.

And now I don’t have a gastric attack.

But I have an allergic reaction instead.

I’ve been trying to sneeze for the last 15 minutes. It’s making its bloody way through but pauses halfway.

SO ANNOYING.

Life in A Bubble

I’ve got tonnes of assignments to complete, but I’d rather procrastinate those obligations and do this now, heh

I woke up late today but made time to pack all the necessities. Just as I had managed to done so for the day, we had only 2 periods of lessons and a Chemistry experiment. Rest of the time was spent with munching of Honey Stars at the back of the class, doing our AppTiak applause and making fun of just about everything.

The rest of our classmates signed up for the Physics Int’l Quiz and there were only around 7 of us left in class. We didn’t have P.E due to the amount of people there was. Pn N was absent for the day so we spent the time playing around and laughing our ass off. Turns out those sitting for the quiz heard Keer & I laughing from upstairs.

Lucky that Keer was a little smart, she came up with this simple game, only one rule there was -don’t ever say a word. Because of that, I had actually managed to complete some Sejarah worksheets. After some time, we couldn’t help but laugh so Keer came up with the plan that we should write “Hahaha” whenever we had to laugh. So I took a large foolscap paper and wrote a huge “HAHAHA” and “hahaha!” with a marker and left it on the table for us both to us. It was simple, just raise the paper to an eye level and move it around a little for a some motion. Heh.

We went in for Chemistry a little late and I was feeling a little high (as if that’s something new); so I walked in like a bimbotic bitch saying “What are you guys making this time? Orange juice?” And we laughed.

That was when I came to realisation that the whole class had succumbed to ignoring us (Keer, Kira, Charl & I) whenever we we’re acting cuckoo. It was like a whole bubble we were in and separated by. We were laughing at the back of the lab and Keer was running around mad but no one seem to mind. Pn H wasn’t in class at that very moment btw. But yeah, it is funny though. As we were trying to tell the class about the whole bubble thing, they seem to just continue with the experiment they were on and it was as if we were the little characters in Honey, I Shrunk The Kids, trying best to be heard.

It is funny though. And nothing else happened today. GrandMa from Johor is here now btw. She got us Nata da Coco (I hope that’s how it’s spelt), ice-cream, biscuits and also made lunch!

Ah well, jaa ♥

Kuiz Kimia Antarabangsa, or whatever it was.

despite having the quiz made compulsory for both my class and the class next door, i did not however take it in as somewhat of a task. i found out the quiz was to happen today (Thursday), just Tuesday, after having seen everyone busy flipping through their Chemistry revision books while i was revising my Physics instead.

and i didn’t even read a phrase out of a Chemistry revision book for the quiz or even for any other matter. as we reached school, having seen the rest all prepared, i got tensed but then i had my “satu kepala” gang of friends, explains how i eased down.

the tables were arranged jlike how it’s meant to be so during our examinations. just as the quiz was about to start, i rushed to the back of the class and grab a seat where i could see the whole class from; it wasn’t an exam so being distracted and having to watch everyone else like in a film is alright. obvious enough, i made myself to be seated in the same line as the usuals (Kira, Keer, Charl, Steph, Anna &Amanda in front of Charl because she hadn’t realise our whole plan)

anyways, i told Keer i had never in my life copied over someone else’s paper and since it was just a blood quiz, i guess it might as well be my first time for it too.

as the quiz started, we made funny noises and laughed. and i could pretty much say..

This has been on my draft list for wayy too long. I don’t think I could recall what had happened to well so let’s just keep things as it is. (: