Boy Not From School

Port Dickson with the cousins was great. I’ve still got sand in my hair and I’m off to bed soon. Everything else has been monotonous as such as how I’d tremendously hate. I go off to bed for a sleep more often than I take a bath, and I sleep most of the time during the day. Skins 3 is ending with it’s final episode soon enough and by then, I’d be even be less occupied.

This is Cook and I could write a whole long essay about him. Vivien would get it, I think I’ve already said too much.

Point is, I like Cook. He’s cute and pointless.

Till soon enough loves.

Losing It.

The only fuckin’ thing is,

I’d have to be fixing this myself.

Don’t Carry The World.

Driving class today was hilarious. I came an hour late for starters, and Cikgu decided it’s time for me to drive on the road.

The car frickin’ died at the traffic light and I laughed my ass off. Cikgu did too and told me to not feel intimidated to go quick when I see others so fast, I should just take it slow and keep it coooo’. So I did.

I banged my head on the window pretty hard while checking if the tyres were settled nicely on the white line. Laughed my ass off again. Nearly hit a car on the road while we were just 5 metres away from the driving centre. The car in front of me was driven by a student and she didn’t accelerate at all but kept braking her way through the road so I had to just brake, brake, brake and out of a sudden she stopped while we were turning into the junction. I think my face was priceless because my Cikgu laughed and told me to chill, -_-”.

I checked out a guy that if my friends saw would probably kill me to get me back on track. A leather jacket, ray-ban aviators, torn jeans, leather court shoes, hair full of gel and all swiped back. And throw in a ring into the picture and a sling bag as well. Seriously, he was good looking. I’d kill his dressing sense but he had the looks.

Speaking of killing something, I did that to my stomach. Had Tom Yam for lunch and unexpectedly, I got anpeptic  ulcer attack. It really stings and I can’t really describe it better than saying that it is as if you squeeze lemon juice onto an ulcer in your mouth, just that this happens inside your stomach and when you walk, that bleeding ulcer feels as if it’s being stretched out and torn off.

Slept through the evening, going out now.

Take care loves.

This Is Easy

Despite the chaotic scholarship and college applications I’ve been drowning myself into, everything is great.
Dad’s getting me the iPod. And Mum’s having her fair share in this thing too since I’ve decided to get myself a phone which isn’t as lower priced as planned before, but instead get the Supernova 7610.

And I still get to keep more than half of my pay-cheque too!

I’m really overwhelmed since I’ve been having my eye on this since so long ago, well since I fell for the marketing strategies they had themselves in for this model.

And an iPod Touch has also been on my must-have gadget list. Well, must-have but will never-have list, actually. But scratch never, I’m getting it! (: And with 16gb memory too :’)

Having driving class tomorrow. Not looking forward.

Ciao loves, take care.

Thanks to Viv, I’m hooked on this! -_-”

Here It Goes.

This new layout reminds me of Christmas. Need to change the header.
This blog is dying just as I am very much inside. HAHAH NAAAHH

This whole lonely-bummer thing will last for pretty long. July to be more precise.
I’m starting to forget the people I used to exchange hellos and smiles to during high-school.
It’s not something I wish to succumb myself to.
Ira’s coming over at around 3pm. I’ve yet to even take a shower.
Driving class tomorrow, not looking forward to it. Teacher’s a good driver. It’s intimidating.
The room’s in an utter mess. Must clean up.
Have got to cash in the cheques ASAP. Must also order the iPod Touch as soon.
Heading to PD this weekend for Grandpop’s 80th. My’s not tagging along, uhh.
I miss my cousins, but I doubt the ones my age would be around.
I miss playing cards with them, I need replacement competitors for Rummy. Anyone?

Oh, and anyone wanna come with me to Singapore in April for Oasis?

I never can get enough of this. Probably because Matt Dallas is hot and so is Katy Perry. Very.

Ciaofolks.

Tagged

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs. Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
I tag whoever.
1.What have you been doing recently?
browsing, youtube-ing, chatting, bumming, eating, sleeping, thinking, shopping.

2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
yes

3. What happened at 10.00 am today?
i was asleep

4. When did you last cry?
i don’t remember at all. it has been very very long :S

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
a little less now.

6. What do you want in your life right now?
a scholarship to the UK! (:

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
neither. but i sometimes have a hat/cap in my handbag.

8. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my flower pillow and my crabb!

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
boxers

10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox says?
Dad telling me I did well for SPM and not to worry at all.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
sensitive q.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nope

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Night At The Museum on frikkin bluray.

14. What are you proud of?
I am not shallow and I handle situations better now.

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
Something from the past. My phone’s off now.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Put your records on

17. Do you have any nicknames?
a few.

18. What does your last received message say?
my phone’s off. i think my sister texted me early today.

*where’s 19 and 20? :S *i don’t know vivien.

21. Who gives you best advice?
google and forums, seriously.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
yuccckk no.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
ira i think.

24. Is anyone bugging you right now?
not really

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Vivien

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Nope

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
phone’s off -_-

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yess

29. Who annoys you the most in person?
everyone’s on the safe level

30. Do you have any crush on anyone?
oui, or not. okay i DONT know.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
no, i’m really really clean.

32. What is the colour of your room?
pink

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
not really, i couldn’t live with the post-paranoia, i might end up killing myself later hahah.

34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
sometimes

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
myself

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
atoy, vivien, steph or arisha.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
heh?

38. Do you have a life?
yes but since i’m answering this long thing, i doubt you’d believe me.

39. Have you ever thought someone died when they really didnt die?
yes

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
just one, or two.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
don’t remember.

42. Last time you smiled?
right now.

43. Have you changed this year?
yes

44. What are you listening right now?
nothing

45. Are you talking to someone when you’re doing this?
yes

46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
ngeh, opened lah!

47. Is there a quote you live by?
sometimes, you have to put yourself into the shoes of someone else to really get the situation.

48. Do you have someone you cannot have?
have someone i cannot have? you mean want? yes.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yes

50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
last week, i had one. and i was right.

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
online

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
nextt

53. What song best decribed your love life?
john mayer or pete should have the honours.

54. Does the person knows that you like him/her?
-

55. Who always make you laugh?
many many people

56. Do you speak other language other than english?
yes

57. Favourite website(s)?
facebook, twitter, wordpress, tryjm, google, youtube

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
scholarship applications

.60. Who do you think you are like?
like ME !

61. Who will you choose to die with?
no one i love.

62. Where have you been today?
no where! ):

63. What game do you play often?
nothing

64. Who are you missing right now?
alot of people

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
it really depends. sorry.

66. What are you doing right now?
this, chatting too.

67. Which primary school are you from?
SK Seafield

68. Name 3 colours that you like.
white, black, gray, red, yellow.

69. What emoticon you like to show?
-_-”

70. What is your life to you?
my tiny little project (:

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
talk to someone

72. Who did you last chat on msn today?
dan

73. Who do you admire most?
john pete.

74. Which month are you born in?
september

75. How are you feeling right now?
lost

76. What’s the time now?
1.04 AM

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
crazy funny

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
copper red blonde

79. Why are you doing this?
bored

80. What do you do when you’re moody?
i frown and do not speak

81. At which age you wish to get married?
25-28. I really don’t mind.

82. Who is more important to you?
my father, mother, sister, brother.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
regret for not getting closer to God

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Tiya, Ira, Najwa, Keer, Dan, my brother, my sister.

85. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after a rain?
yes duhhh

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
to be content for the rest of my life

87. What is your goal for this year?
to enroll into a good college/uni

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
not yet

89. What feeling do you love most?
content, loved.

90. Do you really think its global warming now?
Yes

91. What feeling do you hate most?
lost, empty, hatred without reason

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
not every single. i’m being honest.

93.Do you believe in God?
yes

94. Who cares for you most?
family and friends

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life
staying happy and making others as well

96. What will you bring when you fight?
protection, i’m terrible with physical fights. and protection doesn’t frikkin mean a condom hahahaha.

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
taking things for granted

98. What would you feel if no one longer cares for you?
lonely ?

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
let’s not talk about it

100. How do you feel now?
bored

Here’s To You.

I’m listening to Coldplay as it sweeps away all the piles of confusion rubbish from my head. It’s tough to blog when the mind’s in such a clear state.

Left to Paramount LRT and saw Atoy, Steph, Viv and Arisha. Decided to stick with them and take the train together with Jillian. They were all heading for ICC which I skipped at a very last minute thought. I don’t want to be involved in anything school related right now. I don’t fid it ‘healthy’ since I’m moving on to a whole new education phase right now. Eduuucaation huh.

Headed to Klcc and as I reached there, Ira said Tiya’s already on her way to Bangsar so left Klcc immediately and headed to Bangsar. Went to Midvalley’s Education Fair and it was oookay. The counselor we first sat with couldn’t even speak properly so I had a tough time figuring out his words. And he spoke more than he listened. I asked and he answered with something entirely unrelated. Hahahah at least he tried to be helpful so thank you. Second counselor was a lot better.

To be honest, how the counselor was speaking, it entirely reflected on the college, especially since Counselor 1 is a frikkin lecturer, hahahah! Headed to Gardens for lunch. Headed to GSC Signatures but there weren’t any nice movies so went back to Midvalley’s GSC. Wanted to watch Race to Witch Mountain but it was sold out. They decided on Sayang, You Can Dance but at the very very last minute, I suggested Jin Hutan and they agreed.

WORSE MOVIE EVER. Acting was horrible, script was horrible and the actors looked horrible as well. Was about a boy born ugly and he ended up being isolated. Which resulted in him being somewhat like a mutant monkey. Very bionic, it was like seeing Edward Cullen in action just that Edward looked uglier than a gorilla. How does that even make sense, an ugly person = a beast? Shallow gila. I had a good time laughing my ass off with Tiya to the stupid retarded scenes while Ira looks so serious since she was hooked on her iPod =_=”

Headed to Taman Paramount and Dad brought me to Digital Mall. I’m getting the iPod Touch online by tonight and Dad’s getting me the phone, soon enough.

Heading back to Midvalley a little later for dinner with Amni. I’m really tired. Going to Johor tonight.

Love.

Dunchahh

Mama came back from PD this evening, I know she’s not overwhelmed by what I had achieved. But I also know she loves me as much and that I still get to ask for some sort of prize

So I really need a new phone right now, the E90 is bugging me with it’s bulkiness. I’m getting a cheap nice phone and if goes as planned, a 16gb iPod touch. Really really what I’ve always wanted, a frikkin iPod touch, and with a huge memory of 16gb? Pegh. Ira might be getting one too since she was the one who raised the whole iPod touch topic. Gang siaaa! And I want a fair share of expenditure since I want it to be MY iPod which I worked hard for so I’m putting in a sum of 400 ringgit into this. Daddy got us a full version of Vista Ultimate and I was overwhelmed I nearly cried, -_-”

My second paycheque just rolled in. Thank you Kak Lin! Cashing out the cheques when Daddy’s free. Giving a treat to Kira and Dan as soon, and then the rest is for me, muwahahaha! College application soon, I’m starting to feel happy with the numerous phonecalls I’m getting with congratulations. Can’t beat Amy’s when even my Singaporean relatives gave her a ring since she got perfect scores for every subject. It’s nice to know even when you suck, you still have your loved ones. Sayang till death, ok?

Heading to the Edu Fair tomorrow at Midvalley and probably Klcc too. Daddy wasn’t keen on me going since I already know what I want and confusions not good, but no harm just browsing and gaining knowledge on the whole education system, kan? Going to Disney On Ice on the 20th with Ira and Amni’s going with her friends too. Heading to PD on the 21st till God knows when with my cousins. Can’t frikkin wait mann, I miss them! ):

Must get the iPod touch asap and the new phone as well. Must also start doing something productive.

Loveyouloveyouloveme, Amal.

End. Start.

My blog view for today increased tremendously.

I’m sorry to let you down by not posting my results up as soon. I got a little above what I had expected although not perfect as Amy’s was, I’m content. I really really am. I thank God, my parents, my teachers, my family. Without their love, I wouldn’t even have been alive to sit for the papers.

But honestly, PUSHING ASIDE my family members and my close friends, I’m really being nice in saying this (if you know me personally, you’d know I prefer to straighten things out, EVEN in cyber-space), it could be time for some of you folks to be growing up a little in the head. I can never get how people can be so stupid sometimes, if ever I get myself 11 As or even 11Gs, how the hell does that in any way affect your life? What’s in for me in the future, is mine. Not anyone’s. I don’t see you as a frikkin’ pop-up in my future so if you’re someone I know just by random and just by a few hellos exchanged, I really think you should start living your own life. I mean seriously, triple amount of blog views than yesterday? That’s a little overboard.

Okay, back to life. I got myself 8As. There you have it. I’m content, I’m happy. It could’ve been better, no doubt my class skipping routine in Form 4 has no doubt caused an effect to my studies. Studying in Form 5 never really was ample to cover up what I lacked off in Form 4.

Regrets? None. Well, maybe just very very a little. But I’m really really content.  Alhamdulillah. The feeling of content is something I would never ever trade, even for perfection.  I’m happy and what makes me happier is that even with my imperfections and flaws, I’m happy in my skin, I’m glad I’m me, I’m happy to be the person I’ve grown up to.

Went to Ira’s for pigging out session. Kira then came over. We headed to Tropicana City and met up with Harez. Played Daytona at the arcade and as expected, I lost. I was doing okay when suddenly EFFFFFF my car flipped and it was facing the reversed direction and there’s no reverse gear so I panicked and screamed. At least not as bad as Kira, HAHAH she wa sin second and Harez won. She actually thought the game was over so she screamed and laughed victoriously, letting her hand off the wheel. And then Ira passed her and she got 3rd place. I still got 4th. Car went reversed direction AGAINN during the second game. Headed to Ra’s and Dad fetched me later.

I haven’t really disappointed anyone I love, except Mr T whom I have yet to ring but Dan said he’d still be proud no matter what. I just don’t have the heart to tell him I didn’t succeed in scoring great for my Accounts. The other teachers I came to were happy and it meant so much to me, I really wanted the best for my parents and my teachers. Now everyone’s glad, including me. What a bonus.

Although the flaws are still there in my results slip, I’ve grown out of it, it’s time to move on with life and insyaAllah, I’ll grow up in the right pace, on the right track.

Thank you God, you have made me the most happiest, I know my results pretty much suck, hahaha, but I like what I’ve grown to become, I’m growing to a better adult and I will get closer to you.

♥ -amal

p.s Happy Birthday Pete Doherty! Although Tiya claims you’re sick inside because of all the drugs, I know you’re not. Hahahahah (:

I love Pete’s lyrics in everything. Ok goodnight.

SPM results

Results. .

out in approximately one hour.

I’m scaredd. I woke up by accident and now I can’t sleep back. Chatted with Fahmi on facebook for a while and then here I am after failing to sleep for the 2nd time.

I’ve noted most friends to not ask what I’ve obtained unless an obvious glow is present on my face. Told them to read here since this is where I’d probably curse/laugh/cry/thank.

God bless us.