End. Start.

My blog view for today increased tremendously.

I’m sorry to let you down by not posting my results up as soon. I got a little above what I had expected although not perfect as Amy’s was, I’m content. I really really am. I thank God, my parents, my teachers, my family. Without their love, I wouldn’t even have been alive to sit for the papers.

But honestly, PUSHING ASIDE my family members and my close friends, I’m really being nice in saying this (if you know me personally, you’d know I prefer to straighten things out, EVEN in cyber-space), it could be time for some of you folks to be growing up a little in the head. I can never get how people can be so stupid sometimes, if ever I get myself 11 As or even 11Gs, how the hell does that in any way affect your life? What’s in for me in the future, is mine. Not anyone’s. I don’t see you as a frikkin’ pop-up in my future so if you’re someone I know just by random and just by a few hellos exchanged, I really think you should start living your own life. I mean seriously, triple amount of blog views than yesterday? That’s a little overboard.

Okay, back to life. I got myself 8As. There you have it. I’m content, I’m happy. It could’ve been better, no doubt my class skipping routine in Form 4 has no doubt caused an effect to my studies. Studying in Form 5 never really was ample to cover up what I lacked off in Form 4.

Regrets? None. Well, maybe just very very a little. But I’m really really content.  Alhamdulillah. The feeling of content is something I would never ever trade, even for perfection.  I’m happy and what makes me happier is that even with my imperfections and flaws, I’m happy in my skin, I’m glad I’m me, I’m happy to be the person I’ve grown up to.

Went to Ira’s for pigging out session. Kira then came over. We headed to Tropicana City and met up with Harez. Played Daytona at the arcade and as expected, I lost. I was doing okay when suddenly EFFFFFF my car flipped and it was facing the reversed direction and there’s no reverse gear so I panicked and screamed. At least not as bad as Kira, HAHAH she wa sin second and Harez won. She actually thought the game was over so she screamed and laughed victoriously, letting her hand off the wheel. And then Ira passed her and she got 3rd place. I still got 4th. Car went reversed direction AGAINN during the second game. Headed to Ra’s and Dad fetched me later.

I haven’t really disappointed anyone I love, except Mr T whom I have yet to ring but Dan said he’d still be proud no matter what. I just don’t have the heart to tell him I didn’t succeed in scoring great for my Accounts. The other teachers I came to were happy and it meant so much to me, I really wanted the best for my parents and my teachers. Now everyone’s glad, including me. What a bonus.

Although the flaws are still there in my results slip, I’ve grown out of it, it’s time to move on with life and insyaAllah, I’ll grow up in the right pace, on the right track.

Thank you God, you have made me the most happiest, I know my results pretty much suck, hahaha, but I like what I’ve grown to become, I’m growing to a better adult and I will get closer to you.

♥ -amal

p.s Happy Birthday Pete Doherty! Although Tiya claims you’re sick inside because of all the drugs, I know you’re not. Hahahahah (:

I love Pete’s lyrics in everything. Ok goodnight.

SPM results

Results. .

out in approximately one hour.

I’m scaredd. I woke up by accident and now I can’t sleep back. Chatted with Fahmi on facebook for a while and then here I am after failing to sleep for the 2nd time.

I’ve noted most friends to not ask what I’ve obtained unless an obvious glow is present on my face. Told them to read here since this is where I’d probably curse/laugh/cry/thank.

God bless us.

End To The Wait.

I’m feeling ultimately lost right now. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t want to rise. I just got my very first pay-cheque today and I miss the people at Bangsar upon returning them.

‘haa, kau tolong mak lipat baju mehh!’

‘ha? hahaha, lepas tu letak plus dekat cheque tu ehh ‘

Mak btw is the she-male worker there. That’s what most of them call him and after some time there, that’s what he refers himself to when talking to us too! Sayangggg semua oranggg! (:

Watched a little of Watchmen with Ira and the flow was pretty slow, it was a well written movie, but not something to be expected from a superhero sort of movie. Too much talk, too little action. Headed to Muhibbah with Najwa, Hana, Ira, Faiqa anddddddd Atoy who’s back from NS! With tanned skin, not fully though, an inch from both her face sides is still fair, hahahahah! She was in her NS uniform and boots in OU. Kira fetched us halfway and we headed to Atoy’s.

Dinner was good. Kira sent me home and I got myself the longest shower, or as I had jokingly told Steph, I tried drowning myself but failed, hahahah. After soaking myself for long, and having my eyes turn red because of the water, I stoned.

And here I am. I’m really feeling lost and out of my mind.

What comes, must come. I have to be strong in taking anything. I really really just don’t wish to disappoint anyone, my parents, my teachers, my grand parents and everyone else. I want time smiling ear to ear knowing what my results turned out as.

Gotta text Ra now, need someone to ring me to wake up because I bet I’d be too darn scared to even wake myself up. I won’t be surprised if I end up sleeping or crying, I won’t be amazed if I’d chicken out.

Wish me luck loves.

Amal Zulkifar,
There are times in life when things just happen for a reason, and only when you’re lucky, you are aware of the reason which hids beneath it. There are times when you have to let yourself into a situation, even if that means you have to leave your hopes dangling in mid-air with a possibility of crashing down.  God does not neglect anyone, if ever there’s failure it’s probably because you’ve neglected yourself in the past but you always have an excuse to that, you’re human, not God.

Really, there exist times when you really have to cut yourself some slack.

♥ yourself.

Are You Mad?

I must must must, learn how to sit my bum and study. I must must quit all this restless shit. ADHD or not, it’s all in your head, Mal. Maybe I should countdown to SPM, it’d make me more anxious and study better. It might just annoy me altogether and make me feel like shit. Why do I have to be such a brat sometimes and I even annoy myself now. Okay this is dumb.

Today was fun and unforgettable (:

After so much of hassle gone through, we at last decided to just squeeze all 7 of us +Najwa’s driver into Najwa’s black Myvi. Yes, 8 in a Myvi, in a not-so-short journey from our school to Shah Alam. And let’s not even get started on how funny things got when we saw 2 traffic polices trying to control the traffic at 2 continuous traffic lights. We were there for more than 5 minutes and Yaya and Min could have suffocated trying to hide themselves, hahahahaha! The photoshoot in Shah Alam went great and really can’t wait till the photos turn out. I had a good time and thought it wasn’t at all bad that we had to squeeze in into that car because that made things a lot more memorable and just, fun (:

I’ve got a bruise on my leg because of me running to pick up the phone after procrastinating it for quite some time. I hit it on the edge of a chair btw. Ouch it hurts still. And I’m a little tired now because today wasn’t very planned and come to think of it, I just told my parents that I’d be going to school and in the end I went to school and to Shah Alam and back home and now I’m tired. I must learn how to sit my ass and study because jeez, I haven’t got much time and so I will not go to Klcc tomorrow as planned because I don’t even have a reason to go.

Oh but I’ll be baking a cheesecake on Friday so pray that it turns out lovely and I’d bring a whole lot for you guys on Saturday. Oh and I’m going to Faiqa’s place for an open house on Saturday after tuition. But then again I have no idea how to get there from tuition. If if if if if I could drive, things would be a whole lot easier. So yes, I must study while I have the time. And no, it doesn’t make sense if in terms of how they both relate to one another. I seem to be in a good mood lately, uh? Hmm.

Gives Me Hell.

Graduating makes me think, what is it that I have totally learned in 11 years of studying in school. Found myself altogether? No. And I don’t expect to either. It might be a little too early, still. Realised the priorities in life? Har. I’d rather not even talk on this one. So yes, I liked the ceremony but I don’t find myself graduated. Still a long long way to go. It’s never ending, so they say but I’d like a break in between. OKAY, I’m freaking myself out with the words I’m heading to so let’s end it there.

It really sucks when you start to go back in life and rethink of all that you’ve done and how it hurts when they finally come back to face you and hits you right in the face. Live with me if you don’t believe in karma. I’m like a karma-magnet. When will it be someone elses’ turn?

And btw, I love everyone’s note on my yearbook. I know I drive you guys up the wall a lot because of how much I like to express my views and how sometimes (or maybe most), I get very self-opinionated and argumentative. Not going to deny that. Truth be told I love every one of you with all your flaws altogether. And I don’t want you guys to change for that matter. But then again, changes do occur and sometimes for the better so I won’t get myself against that.

Photos later ♥

I wouldn’t want to get myself involved with me too, fine.

&No, I extremely am not happy with my state of life now.

In denial? Tell me ’bout it.

Oh Jeez, Oh Well, Ah ah.

Okay. Not going to complain. Uhhh. I’m going to have to wear kurung tonight. So sad. Tell me about it.

School was fun, it was as if it was our very last day and we ran around school taking photos everywhere. And then I jumped around like a monkey with a weird hair-do (Thanks Kira), and then I got my Accounts results. And words can’t explain how horrible it is and it’s a first too, so let’s not talk about it. I was tired because of the whole jumping around and I had to give myself space for thinking and stoning so I stoned during Agama and slept off. Thank you Kira for blocking me from the teacher’s sight. I really want to sleep the day away right now because I feel so stressed and lost but I’m graduating tonight.

Please don’t mind me for a moment but,WHAT THE FNEFSDK? I just got hold of THE worse exam results in my entire life history and tonight’s the night to celebrate? I feel like ditching it altogether. Jeez and life likes to go down altogether at once. Can’t it atleast be better when it comes to other scenarios of life?

UHHH!

happy photos before Accounts results later, bye. And Happy Graduation to all -_-”

Because it’s been a week since this post and I’m in a better state, here are the shots:-

The sun was awfully bright that morning. And boy, do I look happy -_-”

Morning prayers, as usual (:

Yes, and the bad ones do too!

No, I wasn’t revising. I was making a dumb poster for our so called “open-class”

Told you it was dumb..

Cheh, I look so lame leaning at the back there.

Thanks for the hairdo, Kira.

RECESS!


Okay we had too many people giving us odd looks while they were walking to the canteen, hahaa

This one’s a favourite! (:

HAHAHAHAH!

Jeez, so makcik.


Whtf?

Yes, my shoe fell off .

Everyone jumped nicely and there I was looking like a retard.

We got Pn Chua to jump too!


Yes, that was when I felt tired and pissed.

And yes, I sleep while holding a pencil most of the time. And Kira took this shot immediately upon waking me up -_-

Oh well, that was what. Ciao loves ♥