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My blog view for today increased tremendously.

I’m sorry to let you down by not posting my results up as soon. I got a little above what I had expected although not perfect as Amy’s was, I’m content. I really really am. I thank God, my parents, my teachers, my family. Without their love, I wouldn’t even have been alive to sit for the papers.

But honestly, PUSHING ASIDE my family members and my close friends, I’m really being nice in saying this (if you know me personally, you’d know I prefer to straighten things out, EVEN in cyber-space), it could be time for some of you folks to be growing up a little in the head. I can never get how people can be so stupid sometimes, if ever I get myself 11 As or even 11Gs, how the hell does that in any way affect your life? What’s in for me in the future, is mine. Not anyone’s. I don’t see you as a frikkin’ pop-up in my future so if you’re someone I know just by random and just by a few hellos exchanged, I really think you should start living your own life. I mean seriously, triple amount of blog views than yesterday? That’s a little overboard.

Okay, back to life. I got myself 8As. There you have it. I’m content, I’m happy. It could’ve been better, no doubt my class skipping routine in Form 4 has no doubt caused an effect to my studies. Studying in Form 5 never really was ample to cover up what I lacked off in Form 4.

Regrets? None. Well, maybe just very very a little. But I’m really really content.  Alhamdulillah. The feeling of content is something I would never ever trade, even for perfection.  I’m happy and what makes me happier is that even with my imperfections and flaws, I’m happy in my skin, I’m glad I’m me, I’m happy to be the person I’ve grown up to.

Went to Ira’s for pigging out session. Kira then came over. We headed to Tropicana City and met up with Harez. Played Daytona at the arcade and as expected, I lost. I was doing okay when suddenly EFFFFFF my car flipped and it was facing the reversed direction and there’s no reverse gear so I panicked and screamed. At least not as bad as Kira, HAHAH she wa sin second and Harez won. She actually thought the game was over so she screamed and laughed victoriously, letting her hand off the wheel. And then Ira passed her and she got 3rd place. I still got 4th. Car went reversed direction AGAINN during the second game. Headed to Ra’s and Dad fetched me later.

I haven’t really disappointed anyone I love, except Mr T whom I have yet to ring but Dan said he’d still be proud no matter what. I just don’t have the heart to tell him I didn’t succeed in scoring great for my Accounts. The other teachers I came to were happy and it meant so much to me, I really wanted the best for my parents and my teachers. Now everyone’s glad, including me. What a bonus.

Although the flaws are still there in my results slip, I’ve grown out of it, it’s time to move on with life and insyaAllah, I’ll grow up in the right pace, on the right track.

Thank you God, you have made me the most happiest, I know my results pretty much suck, hahaha, but I like what I’ve grown to become, I’m growing to a better adult and I will get closer to you.

♥ -amal

p.s Happy Birthday Pete Doherty! Although Tiya claims you’re sick inside because of all the drugs, I know you’re not. Hahahahah (:

I love Pete’s lyrics in everything. Ok goodnight.

SPM results

Results. .

out in approximately one hour.

I’m scaredd. I woke up by accident and now I can’t sleep back. Chatted with Fahmi on facebook for a while and then here I am after failing to sleep for the 2nd time.

I’ve noted most friends to not ask what I’ve obtained unless an obvious glow is present on my face. Told them to read here since this is where I’d probably curse/laugh/cry/thank.

God bless us.

End To The Wait.

I’m feeling ultimately lost right now. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t want to rise. I just got my very first pay-cheque today and I miss the people at Bangsar upon returning them.

‘haa, kau tolong mak lipat baju mehh!’

‘ha? hahaha, lepas tu letak plus dekat cheque tu ehh ‘

Mak btw is the she-male worker there. That’s what most of them call him and after some time there, that’s what he refers himself to when talking to us too! Sayangggg semua oranggg! (:

Watched a little of Watchmen with Ira and the flow was pretty slow, it was a well written movie, but not something to be expected from a superhero sort of movie. Too much talk, too little action. Headed to Muhibbah with Najwa, Hana, Ira, Faiqa anddddddd Atoy who’s back from NS! With tanned skin, not fully though, an inch from both her face sides is still fair, hahahahah! She was in her NS uniform and boots in OU. Kira fetched us halfway and we headed to Atoy’s.

Dinner was good. Kira sent me home and I got myself the longest shower, or as I had jokingly told Steph, I tried drowning myself but failed, hahahah. After soaking myself for long, and having my eyes turn red because of the water, I stoned.

And here I am. I’m really feeling lost and out of my mind.

What comes, must come. I have to be strong in taking anything. I really really just don’t wish to disappoint anyone, my parents, my teachers, my grand parents and everyone else. I want time smiling ear to ear knowing what my results turned out as.

Gotta text Ra now, need someone to ring me to wake up because I bet I’d be too darn scared to even wake myself up. I won’t be surprised if I end up sleeping or crying, I won’t be amazed if I’d chicken out.

Wish me luck loves.

Amal Zulkifar,
There are times in life when things just happen for a reason, and only when you’re lucky, you are aware of the reason which hids beneath it. There are times when you have to let yourself into a situation, even if that means you have to leave your hopes dangling in mid-air with a possibility of crashing down.  God does not neglect anyone, if ever there’s failure it’s probably because you’ve neglected yourself in the past but you always have an excuse to that, you’re human, not God.

Really, there exist times when you really have to cut yourself some slack.

♥ yourself.

Good Start (:

Okay, where do I even start? Surprisingly enough, I’m very happy with how things are now. Nothing seems to go as how I’d want it to flow but I don’t see a single reason to feel so tensed. I have no idea why. I am prioritising better and I guess I managed to figure out what’s important, what I need and what I’d want but not really need. Get me? Maybe not. But things are sort of moving in that sense. I have gotten most of my grades for the Trial examinations. I didn’t score as high as I could -if I had studied. But having to just study a night before each of the examination papers, there’s absolutely no one to be blamed and I did get more than what I deserve. I improved a lot as compared to my grades before and so I feel very content and happy with how things are. I guess in a way, I sort of feel very lucky these days. I don’t want to complain much with life now. I mean, who’s to blame for all the tragedies? It’s my life after all and I have full control of it, so why get so tensed over something you could totally move yourself out from ?

I’m going to be graduating this Friday. Sure does feel weird and despite me having to go aroung saying “I can’t wait till school ends. I won’t miss it at all, seriously”, I guess I am going to miss it, a little. I am definitely not the kind of person who looks back at things and really fret over an issue, I’d probably just miss a moment a little but then make a big deal out of it. Life does get better each day. For me now that is, since I am entirely under my parents’ responsibility, financially, educationally and health wise. What’s more to worry about other then petty problems like not having enough time to submit a homework and the whole love thing. Like honestly.

And it’s funny how I am sort of motivated at this point. But it’s good. And trust me, it ain’t gonna last too long. It’s the ADD. I got a B for my Agama and BM btw. That sucks. Like, really. Ouchhhh. But then again, I used to score at the margin of having to pass or fail my BM paper so, okay.

I dragged Tiya home with me after school today and we watche The Accidental Husband while having Nando’s and McD’s. I practically took a break off revisions (cheh, as if I’m such a study freak noww ) & I also took time to upload Raya photos from Tok Mak’s place last week.

They’ve done this so often and since long, ever since each having able to be the one riding on the back,until growing so much and now being the one to carry.

Faiz and Hakim, the small kid who talks big and poses as if he’s bigger.

It is annoying how the boys can easily jump synchronisingly unlike us girls -_-

As mentioned..

I’m pretty sure we jumped more than 20 times that night ..Because of consecutive failures, we decided to jump while holding hands

The boys actually managed to get every stunt shot as planned on the very first take. So, annoying -_-”

I sat by the side while they watched the horror flick since I wasn’t very up for it .

Was bored so decided to annoy them with the camera’s flash since the room was pitch black.

I ♥ my family more than anything, like honestly (:

It makes me feel sad seeing how each of us are slowly going away to further studies.

M.i.a in all photos is Fahmi who’s in London with another person who’s not in the photos -Tok Cik.

Oh well, this would be my last Raya post so till next year for Raya updates. Insyallah.

Selamat Hari Raya again, Maaf Zahir Batin!

Hahahahah! Hmm, bye! (:

Stones Melt Too

I wouldn’t lie and admit that I do not miss the days when nothing seemed to matter. When everything we had to say for ourselves were right. And when every each of us could just perfectly accept each other for our respective selves. I have never been a person who liked changes. But as always, I seem to end up living a contradiction. Not with much regrets, but even so, the past still matters a lot to me. In every birthday wish, comes a small note from me reading “I’d always have your back no matter what.”, and to be honest, I do actually mean it. I feel sorry for myself being a person who never does appreciate what she has at the moment but lurks around for something new for a change.

I always do opt for a change in life. Not that I liked it much. But it was just nice to be a little different than always. It’s boring to be predictable. And because of this, whatever I have in stored for myself is always just one big question mark.

I honestly like how things are right now. I know I’m not pleasing everyone I know, not only my friends, but my family too. But I just would like to be less dependent now. To really be able to let myself know, that it is much better if I control my own life and not let others try to handle too much of it. I do know that my family is just doing it for the better of me, but it makes me love them more, knowing that they would actually let me get things cleared and just, try this without much doubts heard from others. I mean honestly, I’d probably have (with God’s will), 30 years to live alone independently once I’m done with my studies. I’m sidetracked much now, and I ought to just get back on my own.

I have never been the kind of person who actually likes discussing my issues with others. People do consider me as a person who doesn’t actually fret much over problems. But I think I do it more than a typical being does. I want so many things that I sometimes think my body just can’t cope with my mind anymore. I honestly, can never stand to be weak. And it’s a huge fight against myself. It’s difficult to be the best at everything and when I realise that I’m just not, I just take that particular thing as something completely unreasonable and unimportant in life. If I can’t be the best at doing it, might as well not do it.

I have lately tried best to be a little different than usual. I don’t think it ought to please everyone. But for the first time in life, I have nothing to say for myself. No excuses (:

It’s about time for me to totally take all blames leading to my life.

This ought to make me better.

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