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16th Birthday, my place, 2007
Kebu's Zoo &Tugu Negara Trip, KL, 2007
Wednesdays' Movie Bunch, my place, 2007
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My blog view for today increased tremendously.
I’m sorry to let you down by not posting my results up as soon. I got a little above what I had expected although not perfect as Amy’s was, I’m content. I really really am. I thank God, my parents, my teachers, my family. Without their love, I wouldn’t even have been alive to sit for the papers.
But honestly, PUSHING ASIDE my family members and my close friends, I’m really being nice in saying this (if you know me personally, you’d know I prefer to straighten things out, EVEN in cyber-space), it could be time for some of you folks to be growing up a little in the head. I can never get how people can be so stupid sometimes, if ever I get myself 11 As or even 11Gs, how the hell does that in any way affect your life? What’s in for me in the future, is mine. Not anyone’s. I don’t see you as a frikkin’ pop-up in my future so if you’re someone I know just by random and just by a few hellos exchanged, I really think you should start living your own life. I mean seriously, triple amount of blog views than yesterday? That’s a little overboard.
Okay, back to life. I got myself 8As. There you have it. I’m content, I’m happy. It could’ve been better, no doubt my class skipping routine in Form 4 has no doubt caused an effect to my studies. Studying in Form 5 never really was ample to cover up what I lacked off in Form 4.
Regrets? None. Well, maybe just very very a little. But I’m really really content. Alhamdulillah. The feeling of content is something I would never ever trade, even for perfection. I’m happy and what makes me happier is that even with my imperfections and flaws, I’m happy in my skin, I’m glad I’m me, I’m happy to be the person I’ve grown up to.
Went to Ira’s for pigging out session. Kira then came over. We headed to Tropicana City and met up with Harez. Played Daytona at the arcade and as expected, I lost. I was doing okay when suddenly EFFFFFF my car flipped and it was facing the reversed direction and there’s no reverse gear so I panicked and screamed. At least not as bad as Kira, HAHAH she wa sin second and Harez won. She actually thought the game was over so she screamed and laughed victoriously, letting her hand off the wheel. And then Ira passed her and she got 3rd place. I still got 4th. Car went reversed direction AGAINN during the second game. Headed to Ra’s and Dad fetched me later.
I haven’t really disappointed anyone I love, except Mr T whom I have yet to ring but Dan said he’d still be proud no matter what. I just don’t have the heart to tell him I didn’t succeed in scoring great for my Accounts. The other teachers I came to were happy and it meant so much to me, I really wanted the best for my parents and my teachers. Now everyone’s glad, including me. What a bonus.
Although the flaws are still there in my results slip, I’ve grown out of it, it’s time to move on with life and insyaAllah, I’ll grow up in the right pace, on the right track.
Thank you God, you have made me the most happiest, I know my results pretty much suck, hahaha, but I like what I’ve grown to become, I’m growing to a better adult and I will get closer to you.
♥ -amal
p.s Happy Birthday Pete Doherty! Although Tiya claims you’re sick inside because of all the drugs, I know you’re not. Hahahahah (:
I love Pete’s lyrics in everything. Ok goodnight.
Results. .
out in approximately one hour.
I’m scaredd. I woke up by accident and now I can’t sleep back. Chatted with Fahmi on facebook for a while and then here I am after failing to sleep for the 2nd time.
I’ve noted most friends to not ask what I’ve obtained unless an obvious glow is present on my face. Told them to read here since this is where I’d probably curse/laugh/cry/thank.
God bless us.
I’m feeling ultimately lost right now. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t want to rise. I just got my very first pay-cheque today and I miss the people at Bangsar upon returning them.
‘haa, kau tolong mak lipat baju mehh!’
‘ha? hahaha, lepas tu letak plus dekat cheque tu ehh 
‘
Mak btw is the she-male worker there. That’s what most of them call him and after some time there, that’s what he refers himself to when talking to us too! Sayangggg semua oranggg! (:
Watched a little of Watchmen with Ira and the flow was pretty slow, it was a well written movie, but not something to be expected from a superhero sort of movie. Too much talk, too little action. Headed to Muhibbah with Najwa, Hana, Ira, Faiqa anddddddd Atoy who’s back from NS! With tanned skin, not fully though, an inch from both her face sides is still fair, hahahahah! She was in her NS uniform and boots in OU. Kira fetched us halfway and we headed to Atoy’s.
Dinner was good. Kira sent me home and I got myself the longest shower, or as I had jokingly told Steph, I tried drowning myself but failed, hahahah. After soaking myself for long, and having my eyes turn red because of the water, I stoned.
And here I am. I’m really feeling lost and out of my mind.
What comes, must come. I have to be strong in taking anything. I really really just don’t wish to disappoint anyone, my parents, my teachers, my grand parents and everyone else. I want time smiling ear to ear knowing what my results turned out as.
Gotta text Ra now, need someone to ring me to wake up because I bet I’d be too darn scared to even wake myself up. I won’t be surprised if I end up sleeping or crying, I won’t be amazed if I’d chicken out.
Wish me luck loves.
Amal Zulkifar,
There are times in life when things just happen for a reason, and only when you’re lucky, you are aware of the reason which hids beneath it. There are times when you have to let yourself into a situation, even if that means you have to leave your hopes dangling in mid-air with a possibility of crashing down. God does not neglect anyone, if ever there’s failure it’s probably because you’ve neglected yourself in the past but you always have an excuse to that, you’re human, not God.
Really, there exist times when you really have to cut yourself some slack.
♥ yourself.
Am I really the only one among us who’s looking back? ):
♥
Last day of work was when I managed to talk a lot with the other staffs. Clmt had a chat and asked me if I was a lesbian and I denied it and I think I looked like this –> o.O He laughed and said that if I wasn’t Ra and I should do work at different departments and not fold clothes together while chit chatting. I got so annoyed and I guess it made him tease me further so he wouldn’t stop saying ‘lesbo lesbo lesbo’ until I hit him a little in the hand and went to another department.
Apparently he’s a Business Admin graduate and so I told him I plan to study Econs and he gave me a few tips here and there and I guess he really after all was pretty smart and knew a lot of things. He told me he doesn’t want me to end up working with a friend along after this and I told him it’s time to study and not work and he said ‘Ohh, so lepas belajar kahwin jeee, kahwin kahwin, you taknak kerja dah kan? Kahwin jee’
Tengg. And not only that, he dressed up as a guy yesterday minus his studs and tight skinnies. Bng was a guy who irritated us THE most there with his cocky looks but he came up to us and shook hands, then wished us good luck with everything, major sweet :’) Said goodbye to Clmt and thanks for everything and his gayness came to surface when he asked “Nak pelukk?” “Nak ciummm?” “Taknak? Ishh teruklah korang niii”, hahahah! And on my last day I got Man a customer who purchased around 400ringgit worth of baju or more so I helped him a little with his commission by passing him the customer I was serving, he’s a nice guy and he was always so warm so I was glad that he was happy (:
Apparently Dan was planning to surprise me at work dragging Kira along but now that we don’t work any longer, the plan’s off. But thank you really for the thought, because surely not more than anyone else Dan knows how irritating and sucky things have been lately and you guys visiting as a surprise would have been a nice surprise.
Adam came into the shop for a chat and came back some time later with ZhiLi who screamed “Eh, Wan Amall!” from far. He’s still the same old kepoh him and we had a quick chat in the shop while Clmt was glaring. Said bye and sulked sorry to Clmt and he replied with “I marah ke? Tak marahla. I happy tengok you, tengok you punya heart drop!” of which I replied with a “Huhhh whaaatt?” and he laughed and walked away. Heh. I’d never have feelings for either those dudes. Saw Shaheen and he looked the same. Smiled at him and he frowned weirdly and smiled back as we were walking opposingly but I decided to turn back and he did too which resulted to a ‘Amal ehh?’ and a quick chat plus a hug of which I dodged, ending up being a faint pat on my shoulders. He had an American accent to his speaking and is apparently planning to learn up aviation in Australia soon enough since his dad is a pilot too. It was nice to see him since he bullied me so badly in kindergarten, was so shy towards me and we never talked during primary school although he did call me over for his party and then there he was after so long. Apparently most of my guy friends never grew taller so they’re really just around my height.
So yes, end of my working days and back to zero purpose. But as Dan has put it, just 2 more weeks! Humh. Scared as hell but no use regretting anything now.
Maybe some updates later. Off to sleep.
Takecare;ciao.
Firstly, congratulations John Mayer for coming off with 2 Grammys, and both vocals :’) Yeah, I’m happy THAT much. And I raced right in front of the tvto watch the repeat show right as I arrived home from work.
The Kelantanese guy talks a lot. But I didn’t mind initially since I don’t understand a single thing he says so all I have to do is pretend to be listening and to be in to the conversation, while Ira just says “a hah, oh” because she obviously was annoyed with him.
It got scary after a while. I was busy standing while wrapping stocks to be scanned out of the shop and all he did was sit in front of the table I was wrapping the product on. He sat there facing me and stared up, smiled within gaps. It might not be altogether freaky but I am definitely the kind of person who tremendously hate stares. So it got really irritating!
I poked his hand with a pair of scissors because he wanted to be helpful by helping me wrap but that led to his hand accidentally touching mine everytime so I got annoyed and poked him off. He complained in Kelantanese and I just said sorry.
This happened between Z the sissy and me. Orange is me, pink is him.
*helps me wrap the package.
“er, tangannn”
“haa? kenapaa?”
“cuba tengok tangan, hahahah!”
“eeeeeeeh bencilahh! aawww, buruk dah tangan i! dah tak cantikk!”
“HAHAHAHAHAH”
Zh didn’t attend work yesterday and Ira felt happy since he likes annoying Ira. But I’d rather have Zh around than Zm since Zm is just plain creepy.
This happened at around 9 at night. We were busy looking at the people loading the trolleys to go down to the basement to load up the warehouse lorry. Yellow is Ira. Orang is me. Pink is sissy Z. Green is Kak R. Purple is the lorry man.
“nak tengok lorry! nak tengok lorry!”
“nak ikuttt hantarr! nak ikuttttttt!”
“okay, okay, bolehboleh, korang pergilahh tengok lorry”
“yayyy! dapat tengok lorry!”
“alaa, berat laa”
*race back to shop back after loading the lorry
“ni apa budakbudak ni larilari, tak balik lagi?”
“hahah! kita pergi tengok lorryy!”
“best lorry tu tengok, ada aircond semua?”
“haa? kita tengok tempat simpan barang je, takkan situ ada aircond, taktaula kan?”
“hahahaha *shakes head”
We are pretty pampered there.
Had lunch at La Bodega, looked under the Tapas menu and ordered one immediately. Realised that I ordered a piece of lamb. Ordered baguette cuts to go with it and it was a good lunch. Cute waiter was off for that day 
I like night shifts. They’re really nice since we get to run around the shop.
Saw Hansen Lee who I used to watch on Breakfast Show when I skip school. He’s hot.
I saw 2 very very good looking guys at SDC. One was white. One was probably caucasian. The latter was so cocky. I’ve realised, hot cocky guys are only made to be checked out by girls, they’re not good men. I like dorks!
I went to Keerthana’s place today after seeing her coincidentally at SDC. We talked and updated on things, I’m happy for her and I hope everything doesn’t turn out bitter at all for her. Keerthana is probably the only person who truly knows the whole story behind my disasters of 2008. I wasn’t very much me, but I don’t regret any of it. The only regret I have is letting it all go off by not giving two shits about it.
I was dumb during CNY.
I miss a lot of the past right now.
That’s it for now. More later. Love.
You cut me deep bitch,
Everything’s repeating itself all over, this time, I’m watching the show instead of starring in it. And I’m not having myself a grand time! Okay maybe I really am over the past.
_
I woke up at a few minutes past 10 and went online. Had a call from SDC claiming that my attendance for the 5 hour long course wasn’t able to be tracked. Great start. Rang Ira. She got the phone call in the midst of our phone conversation. It was around 10.35 when I took a bath and put on something to wear. By 11, I was calling the cab. So I had my hair still damp, no make-up on me at all and I looked out of place. But whatevs, was running late. Got a cab and headed to Ira’s.
Her mum sent us to SDC to drop our cards and then we headed to Pusat Bandar Damansara to see Najwa & Faiqa. I miss HELP a little since I spent tonnes of my times there when I was in Form 4 due to debate tournaments I had myself in for. We had lunch at Kenny Roger’s and then we talked talked and yeah. They headed back to class around 3 hours later. Ira wanted a bus ride for the sake of an ‘adventure’ so we waited at a bus stop for 5 minutes and realised that place was too packed with cars for buses to even drive through so we crossed the road and asked around. Waited, waited, waited. Saw a bus on the opposite road. Hahaha, and we decided to still wait at the same spot and not give up. Then I noted to Ira that if the way to KL Sentral is heading to our right, then whtf are we doing by the road heading to our left. NGEHH! So we crossed the road and headed to a further bus stop which had more people. Waited, and we gave up to a cab.
Reached Bangsar LRT and headed to KLCC. Went to Kinokuniya. Had a waffle and we spotted this Melayu couple which made us laugh our asses off. They were having just a conversation which seems to be a serious one and the girl was actually playing around with the dude’s beard and it seemed to entertain her.
And then she started circulating her index fingers and drawing imaginary god-knows-what on that guy’s arms and playing with his ears. Sick as hell okay? I mean, get a room, don’t do it in a food court!
But thanks for the comedy show, I laughed my ass off to it and I swear I learned myself a lesson.
We then headed to see Tiya who works at ___. And then Ira and I had this wild idea of going job hunting. And we sure did! We headed to Billabong, Quiksilver, Toys’R'Us, FCUK, Mango, GAP and well, everywhere was full. But Miss Sixty had an empty vacancy they were offering for their Bangsar outlet. Dumb thing is, she made us pick between us on who to apply because she only wanted one. Ira told me to go for it and I’d help her get somewhere to work out in Bangsar. And when I gave my name and number, the list had like 30 people on it. So I really don’t get the point in her not letting both of us apply.
After that we then headed to have a snack and Ira thought the guy cooking our thing was cute. And as the guy was telling a customer next to us how popular the ‘Chicken & Cheese’ flavour is, Ira started to want it. And she also just realised after I had noted her, that she had accidently ordered Cheese & Onion Crisps. Hahahaha so she changed her order to Chicken and Cheese and I tried so hard not to laugh. But I couldn’t hold it in the end. I guess the dude couldn’t really stand how obvious we were about being so serious about choosing flavours so he tried so hard not to laugh and in the end he actually told me to stop laughing because he can’t stand himself from laughing his ass off. And I decided to shut up too because I don’t want his saliva in my Pizza Crisp!
So we had our crisps which that guy said resembled an ‘Apam Balik’ and we also had sushi.
Then we got back home after getting ourselves away from a guy who wanted to sell us perfumes. We were dead broke anyways. Reached the LRT near home and met Mum. Saw the hottest guy on Earth (#2) and he probably is in his mid 20s or slightly older. Heard him speak and boyy was it a sexy accent he had! Definitely not a local. Heading to Bangsar and around there and stuf tomorrow to job hunt with Ira. We’re aimless right now and we’re postponing our Undang2 Driving Test since we’re going around job hunting.
So today was a good day. With a really random plan of going to meet my friends and ending up in Klcc with my ‘baru-bangun’ face. And I managed to get a ride home eventually because Dad’s in Johor and I only found out when I asked him if he could fetch me home since I’ve been out since morning and I don’t feel like getting home at night. Klcc was a little of a bum.
_
I like things just how they were and I want no difference to anything. I lost myself a friend and I’d give in to anything to get you back. But that is if you’re really gone for now and not just acting like a jackass. I can’t really tell you or just about anyone what I really want in anything because I don’t quite know myself.
I miss you being the only person trying to make my life better than the good it already was.
2 down, 1 more to go.
Okay, I’m not really broke but having to think that I’ve got Sunburst to catch, I really shouldn’t be splurging. I’m hooked onto getting myself a new pair of shoes. But I really don’t think I should get them the same time Najwa & I get Abe his pair of birthday shoes (btw, Abe’s birthday is today 
), and I somehow don’t really want to ask my Mum to get me the pair looking at the fact that I’ve actually got the money for it and not only that, also in a way, it is as if getting Abe a pair for his birthday had cut me down on my expenses and so Mommy has to pay for mine. Hahaha, but I guess I’d still get Mum to chip in a little. My brother got himself a pair of Puma shoes and a pair of Nikes in like, a month!
Well there’s always another way though. Being a J-Pop fangirl in the past, I’ve got some items with me that I could actually sell off. I’ve got 20+ magazines, worth around 30bucks each but I’d sell them off half price. 2 or so photobooks which cost me 80 bucks each but I’d give in for 30 bucks maybe. A Limited Edition single and a Limited Edition Album. 2 bags from a Concert Tour which could be worth 50 bucks each. 2 files, or if I look harder 3, which costs 30bucks each. And most importantly, this out of print photobook still complete with it’s plastic container and stuff which costs me 100bucks and I could raise the price as hell since it’s highly demanded by crazy fan-girls and it’s out of print from the company.
So, accumulate them all (I’m not calculating the magazines), I could earn myself close to 500bucks.
Thing is, being a pretty nostalgic person who likes keeping her past, I’m not really keen in selling them off.
Well then again, I could get myself some quick cash and I would definitely make some girl in a corner of the world be the happiest fan on Earth.
Okay, I really don’t know. Money just doesn’t tempt me in selling my past.
-_-”
I spent today watching a Chinese game show, the ones without subtitles and no, I don’t at all understand or speak Mandarin, Hokkien or Cantonese (except dumb phrases I’ve managed to steal from random conversations around) but I somehow watch Chinese game shows. Not weekly dramas, just game shows. I’m starting to think my habit is profoundly weird.
I also thought of a few things, went on Youtube and nothing more than that. Wait, I also cooked a little. And more browsing on colleges.
Well, I also browsed some old photos and came across a few in the school’s Science labs. I miss lessons in the school’s Science labs. Times when we would fail to get expected results in the experiments we conduct, when we start our experiments only when others have completed theirs, when we sprayed distilled water onto one another and came out of the lab with damp hair, when we sneak into other groups and pretend it’s our experiment going on, when I scream my lungs off once I get so serious and bossy in getting the most accurate results and Keerthana would be mocking me and I start chasing her around the table with the distilled water sprayer then only give up and we both laugh our asses off, when Amanda would be busy writing God knows what (probably AddMath homework), when Charlene would ALWAYS be the one to take the apparatus, when I would get so excited to do the experiment in the beginning but we mess up the procedure and I start laughing my ass off to how we never get it done, when Steph would be the one telling us the procedures, and also when Steph would just sit by Amanda, when we act as if we’re invisible even if the class is going on, when we sing random songs and do weird dances while carrying out experiments of our own, when we play bingo to keep ourselves awake during Pn H’s Chemistry explanation, when we would get stares from Pris. from the table infront us and Steph and I would try to figure out just why, when we get annoyed by the glares we get, when we got praised for being so hyped up and writing notes during the lesson when we were infact playing bingo, when Steph would complain on how annoyed she is with Af. and her series of questions and ramblings, when Steph would be able to answer questions from Pn Nitc and responds to praises with “Hehe, I studied!”, when I try to keep myself awake in Physics, when Keerthana would do silly things and point towards me when Pn L comes running to the table, times when I’d get tickled by Pn L and laugh my ass off and beg for her to stop while Keerthana would make fun of me and tell Pn L to continue, and then Pn L decides to annoy Keerthana instead, when Stephanie would get tickled if ever she turns back to our table. I miss all that. I miss you guys a lot. Keerthana, Charlene, Stephanie, Amanda. It’s odd how that I’m blogging on you guys instead of the 10 close friends I spend most of my off-class times with but I just miss you guys so much. And I have no idea when we’ll be meeting next!
Keerthana, I still have my pencil box at your place, not only that, I miss how I could tell you just anything and I could whine all day about life to you, I also no longer have a friend to annoy me by telling random people I just got to know that I’m not Malay but in fact a mix of odd races, I miss heading to tuition with you, I miss how similar we are Hello missy, you are the girl who changed my whole perception on being attached ok? Thanks to you, I ended my life plan of working&travelling all the time, and only getting a guy and making babies if I spot one fine nice lad in the process. Hahaha, remember Form 4 we had to talk about marriage and I didn’t want to because I don’t care at all, and at Form 5 I was actually thinking it’d be fun and okay. HAHA
Charlene, you owe me a boyfriend (HAHA kidding). Well, I miss you because I don’t have any other friend who gets to be cute like a 5 year old and gets away with it without being annoying. I also miss your advices on staying optimistic and having faith and hope all the time in life. Not forgetting, you’re probably the nicest person I know on Earth. You don’t talk on flaws of others at all and you accept everything the way it is. I miss bugging you about your brother too (although I don’t have a thing for him! Keer does! lol). We have to meet up, I promise to call you princess!
Stephanie, you owe me Hokkien lessons (although you can only speak a little), and a photo or a glimpse of a guy you would consider as a leng-chai. I also miss how you say “It’s okay, if she does that, you can sue her! She can’t do that!”, whenever I complain on how some things might just end up. I also miss you ramblings on everything happening in the country. Not forgetting you and your lame jokes as well as how you respond to the lame jokes I make. I also miss how I could go up to you and complain of the people I know and you’d give me a respond all the time, even if some of my complains were just rubbish, Hahaha! Well, I miss annoying you and I miss having someone to annoy people with.
Amanda, you owe me your clingy-ness. You never will be reading my blog but I miss you and the odd questions you ask, telling you weird things myself, and how you poke people into their cheeks. Hahaha, I really miss the last part! And because you don’t read my blog I’m ending this here 
So yes, you bunch owe me a meet up session
the group which never fails in getting accurate results, and hey, a glimpse of Charl!
That’s were I spent most of my free time in class. And Keer, Charl, Sab & I were called ‘girls at the back’ when we’re given assignments in Form 4, so we sort of got stuck to the term even in Form 5.
Amanda in the Chem Lab. This time she’s probably re-organising her book, she’s the class treasurer.
Keer, she’s peeling off the pear’s skin during our fermentation project. Lucky we managed to get a pear from Jasmeet. Very expected of us, we all forgot to bring a fruit!
Steph pounding the pears, with the mortar. And there’s my pencil box!
I still remember how Liyana’s group did a mixture of durian and some other fruit and how horrid the smell was.
‘X’ is where I picked to sit my bum on during the first day of school. It is also where I sit when I feel insecure with how the teachers think of me, (that feeling comes at random times but not often at certain months).
‘O’ is where I’d usually grab an extra chair and sit at during lessons besides AddMath (at times I decide to shift back too, lol) and Agama (well, I’d be the only one left during Agama). Well, sometimes I’d sit at my supposed spot during BM, only if Pn N points out that I’m not fully attentive. Not very often 
Hehehe. So yes, sometimes Afiqah sees me only once a month or maybe not that bad, but I feel bad though for leaving her alone. I’m too comfortable at the back. Only reason I shift in front is Pn S told my mum and myself during open day that I cannot be seated beside Keer. Hahaha, wow man.
Clockwise from top- Keerthana at the far end (her being at the end proably means she;s busy doing some homework), Charlene, Anna, Stephanie, Tarsha, Myself.
Oh and Tarsha, I haven’t heard of you since the last day of SPM. I still remember the last thing we spoke about was if our accounts were balanced. You’re one of the people I am surprised to be able to get so close to at a very short time. After supercamp we were able to somehow talk about things and I could go up to you and ask you on just how things are and could also tell you how things are going on in my life.
Well, I miss you guys! I miss annoying you guys with my daily ramblings on life. I miss asking you guys on what’s new. I miss us and our endless conversations from the country, our religions, boys, boys, teachers, education, family, and stupid things like about the person who goes jogging daily by the road.
I don’t want us to not meet again
