The only fuckin’ thing is,
I’d have to be fixing this myself.
This new layout reminds me of Christmas. Need to change the header.
This blog is dying just as I am very much inside. HAHAH NAAAHH 
This whole lonely-bummer thing will last for pretty long. July to be more precise.
I’m starting to forget the people I used to exchange hellos and smiles to during high-school.
It’s not something I wish to succumb myself to.
Ira’s coming over at around 3pm. I’ve yet to even take a shower.
Driving class tomorrow, not looking forward to it. Teacher’s a good driver. It’s intimidating.
The room’s in an utter mess. Must clean up.
Have got to cash in the cheques ASAP. Must also order the iPod Touch as soon.
Heading to PD this weekend for Grandpop’s 80th. My’s not tagging along, uhh.
I miss my cousins, but I doubt the ones my age would be around.
I miss playing cards with them, I need replacement competitors for Rummy. Anyone?
Oh, and anyone wanna come with me to Singapore in April for Oasis? 
I never can get enough of this. Probably because Matt Dallas is hot and so is Katy Perry. Very.
Ciaofolks.
My blog view for today increased tremendously.
I’m sorry to let you down by not posting my results up as soon. I got a little above what I had expected although not perfect as Amy’s was, I’m content. I really really am. I thank God, my parents, my teachers, my family. Without their love, I wouldn’t even have been alive to sit for the papers.
But honestly, PUSHING ASIDE my family members and my close friends, I’m really being nice in saying this (if you know me personally, you’d know I prefer to straighten things out, EVEN in cyber-space), it could be time for some of you folks to be growing up a little in the head. I can never get how people can be so stupid sometimes, if ever I get myself 11 As or even 11Gs, how the hell does that in any way affect your life? What’s in for me in the future, is mine. Not anyone’s. I don’t see you as a frikkin’ pop-up in my future so if you’re someone I know just by random and just by a few hellos exchanged, I really think you should start living your own life. I mean seriously, triple amount of blog views than yesterday? That’s a little overboard.
Okay, back to life. I got myself 8As. There you have it. I’m content, I’m happy. It could’ve been better, no doubt my class skipping routine in Form 4 has no doubt caused an effect to my studies. Studying in Form 5 never really was ample to cover up what I lacked off in Form 4.
Regrets? None. Well, maybe just very very a little. But I’m really really content. Alhamdulillah. The feeling of content is something I would never ever trade, even for perfection. I’m happy and what makes me happier is that even with my imperfections and flaws, I’m happy in my skin, I’m glad I’m me, I’m happy to be the person I’ve grown up to.
Went to Ira’s for pigging out session. Kira then came over. We headed to Tropicana City and met up with Harez. Played Daytona at the arcade and as expected, I lost. I was doing okay when suddenly EFFFFFF my car flipped and it was facing the reversed direction and there’s no reverse gear so I panicked and screamed. At least not as bad as Kira, HAHAH she wa sin second and Harez won. She actually thought the game was over so she screamed and laughed victoriously, letting her hand off the wheel. And then Ira passed her and she got 3rd place. I still got 4th. Car went reversed direction AGAINN during the second game. Headed to Ra’s and Dad fetched me later.
I haven’t really disappointed anyone I love, except Mr T whom I have yet to ring but Dan said he’d still be proud no matter what. I just don’t have the heart to tell him I didn’t succeed in scoring great for my Accounts. The other teachers I came to were happy and it meant so much to me, I really wanted the best for my parents and my teachers. Now everyone’s glad, including me. What a bonus.
Although the flaws are still there in my results slip, I’ve grown out of it, it’s time to move on with life and insyaAllah, I’ll grow up in the right pace, on the right track.
Thank you God, you have made me the most happiest, I know my results pretty much suck, hahaha, but I like what I’ve grown to become, I’m growing to a better adult and I will get closer to you.
♥ -amal
p.s Happy Birthday Pete Doherty! Although Tiya claims you’re sick inside because of all the drugs, I know you’re not. Hahahahah (:
I love Pete’s lyrics in everything. Ok goodnight.
Results. .
out in approximately one hour.
I’m scaredd. I woke up by accident and now I can’t sleep back. Chatted with Fahmi on facebook for a while and then here I am after failing to sleep for the 2nd time.
I’ve noted most friends to not ask what I’ve obtained unless an obvious glow is present on my face. Told them to read here since this is where I’d probably curse/laugh/cry/thank.
God bless us.
I’m feeling ultimately lost right now. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t want to rise. I just got my very first pay-cheque today and I miss the people at Bangsar upon returning them.
‘haa, kau tolong mak lipat baju mehh!’
‘ha? hahaha, lepas tu letak plus dekat cheque tu ehh 
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Mak btw is the she-male worker there. That’s what most of them call him and after some time there, that’s what he refers himself to when talking to us too! Sayangggg semua oranggg! (:
Watched a little of Watchmen with Ira and the flow was pretty slow, it was a well written movie, but not something to be expected from a superhero sort of movie. Too much talk, too little action. Headed to Muhibbah with Najwa, Hana, Ira, Faiqa anddddddd Atoy who’s back from NS! With tanned skin, not fully though, an inch from both her face sides is still fair, hahahahah! She was in her NS uniform and boots in OU. Kira fetched us halfway and we headed to Atoy’s.
Dinner was good. Kira sent me home and I got myself the longest shower, or as I had jokingly told Steph, I tried drowning myself but failed, hahahah. After soaking myself for long, and having my eyes turn red because of the water, I stoned.
And here I am. I’m really feeling lost and out of my mind.
What comes, must come. I have to be strong in taking anything. I really really just don’t wish to disappoint anyone, my parents, my teachers, my grand parents and everyone else. I want time smiling ear to ear knowing what my results turned out as.
Gotta text Ra now, need someone to ring me to wake up because I bet I’d be too darn scared to even wake myself up. I won’t be surprised if I end up sleeping or crying, I won’t be amazed if I’d chicken out.
Wish me luck loves.
Amal Zulkifar,
There are times in life when things just happen for a reason, and only when you’re lucky, you are aware of the reason which hids beneath it. There are times when you have to let yourself into a situation, even if that means you have to leave your hopes dangling in mid-air with a possibility of crashing down. God does not neglect anyone, if ever there’s failure it’s probably because you’ve neglected yourself in the past but you always have an excuse to that, you’re human, not God.
Really, there exist times when you really have to cut yourself some slack.
♥ yourself.
Slept at 4 last night because I was trying to sleep and then an Msn conversation popped up and I didn’t feel like sleeping and was too hungry to sleep but fell asleep at the end of the conversation.
Lunch with Ra & Abe today. Need to mandi asap.
Jason Mraz tomorrow night and probably bumming back at home. If I could drive, okay, no ifs, let’s just face it like uh-maahn.
Ira’s birthday on Thursday but no plans for the day since Najwa & Faiqa’s got classes.
Ira’s birthday at Scream Park and also dinner on Friday.
I need to fill in Thursday. Probably dropping by Klcc for a visit at Swatch.
I’ve fallin in love with Swatch Bijoux’s range of jewelry. Mainly their rings, but why again would I get myself a 400 ringgit ring?
No paycheck yet at moment so browsing is just completely harmless. Plus I’m being paid through a cheque, not cash so the ring has to wait.
Let’s see, I’ll have a wish list of what I’d get if ever I feel like splurging.
1. Pete’s new single and new album. It’s his debut so this is just a must.
2. A pair of shoes. Or maybe two.
3. A thing or two to wear but I plan to not get everything from Perkins or Topshop and try to shop at places which sell similar clothes at cheaper prices 0:)
4. Swatch Bijoux jewelries. I actually want one of their rings very badly.
Edit:-
Sometimes even when I’m really tired with so many things, I still don’t put an end. For instance, my eyes are stinging now but I actually just popped up a random conversation with an old friend after 5 years of not speaking to him.
Mamak for lunch ended up to Pyramid till close to 11. As we were happily eating our Nasi Ayams, Abe asked to accompany him to Pyramid to send his resignation letter with Ira along after her driving class. So then I remembered the viral fever that the computer is infected with and we headed to Abe’s for him to take his laptop and change. Walked to my place.
The weather’s like a freakin sauna. Reached home and in the end, as expected, I ended up typing the letter with Abe lazing around watching Transformers on Dvd and looking through my Dvd catalouges for the ones he’d want to borrow. And Ira just said ‘no comment, no comment’ as I sulked to her since I don’t remember how to write letters anymore.
Left from home with Ra and Abe at 4.30. Went to driving school. Ira went to her teacher as Abe and I waited while I had to listen to freakin trance that Abe was listening to. Plan was to go have waffles, Ira belanjaa kitaa, but then it rained so heavily that we were just stuck there. He decided to watch 300 on his laptop and all I did was stare into space, counting minutes till when Ira’s done. Met my cikgu and arranged classes with him.
Left that place and headed to the LRT. Came across LiteFm Cruiser thing and got a free pizza each! And then Abe decided to stay for a game. They both won a shirt. And he decided to stay for another game. And I got a RM 3 voucher out of it which I gave to Abe. The train was apparently out of service so we decided to walk to the bus stop while Abe was pissed off. Waited, waited. Suddenly a bus of school kids came by and stopped, they had a quarell between the kids by the road, both from the same school. Suddenly, the kid from the bus ran down from the bus and slapped the kid on the road real hard on the face. Freakin loud. I wanted to cry to be honest.
Got the bus, headed to Pyramid. Abe went to Topshop and we headed to where we worked. Manager asked if I was there to go see my freidn working at P*a. “Dia bukan kawan I. Kawan lamaaa. Dah tak kawan.” “Kenapa bukan kawan?”"Kawan lama. Macam you la, dah tak kawann”, and that managed to make him stop questioning. But could tell he liked my top because he talked to me while looking at my top, and not at my face -_-”
Not a single showtime for movies. All were after 9. Around an hour from that time. Buat penat je tell the whole of BS that we were off to a movie sbb ‘kita orang mudaa, you dah tuaa’. Serious tengg. Window shopped.
Wanted to go see Swatch to check out the collection under Swatch Bijoux but there’s no Swatch in Pyramid so went to Lacoste and a few other shops to check out shoes. Had dinner, left that place on a bus.
And Abe wore a straw hat which looked like Jason Mraz’s. And one random African-American guy actually yelled “Jason Mrazz mann! Jason Mrazz!” while patting hard on his friend’s back. Hahahahaha no comment.
The bus ride to home was funny because Ira was super annoyed with Abe she ended up acting like a 5 year old on a revenge, which left me and Abe laughing our asses off and how I wish we could’ve gotten it on Youtubee.
Headed to Ira’s. Got home.
Went online, browsed. And I found something I would not write here. It’s official that my taste in men is so horrid that I don’t trust my feelings any longer.
Ish.
Jason Mraz tomorrow! Sleepover! Ira’s celebration on Thursday! I think Friday could be shopping day.
Ciaomuhlafvss, A.
I tried to apply to IPTA but failed to load the online application form and panicked as I found out that my unique i.d number wasn’t so unique after all since Ira had the exact same thing. After cursing for long at the whole system of how things function in this country and yelling at everyone who came to sight, I read the Q & A section of the bloody stupid annoying website and realised that it is common to have a similar unique i.d number with a friend and Ira tried applying for me again and managed to but I decided it’s better if I do it on my own. And then I got paranoid if whether the dateline is tomorrow or not. But it really isn’t tomorrow for my category just that I’m still panicking for no reason. And Dad thinks that I’m too kan cheong and kepoh and am the exact opposite of being cool.
Honestly, I would drop this whole paranoia if I could you know.
Was reading John Mayer’s updates on Twitter and he posted a link to a grammar site. And now I’m hooked onto it.
I wonder if Malaysia has like a Grammar tournament, : B.
Okay there are 2 things that would leave me grinning ear to ear if ends up being a profession:-
1. English. And that would mean journalism or literature sorts. Malaysia hasn’t got broadway or theatres though.
2. Culinary. I like cooking and I have no idea if I could really pursuit this. Insyallah, with God’s will and my determination I probably really could. All I need is a professional degree now, and a diploma from overseas in cooking. Life is just really short so I really don’t know what I’m waiting for now. Okay, results -_-
And then there’s the half of me enjoying the fun of managing an event, but really, nearly everyone knows how to organise a cool and smooth-sailed party, no? So this is not something I will not pursuit because I’d stick to having fun rather than creating it.
Okay enough nonsense, I’m really hooked onto that website.
CFN. Ciao Fuh Naoo.
HAHAHA :B
Ira and I got ourselves a job to occupy our time with for this week. Thank you Kak Lin, thank you Ra! (:
It was fun and we went to Tropicana City for lunch and this dude I checked out from driving class actually works there.
I’m feeling extremely down and my eyes are already dried out. It seems like I’m an absolute immature to be feeling so stressed out over IPTA registrations but I really really don’t want to make the wrong choice. I could say I’ve always been careful in making decisions and the only time I’ve totally regreted something was once in 2008 and I still blame myself for it up till now.
I just realised how the IPTAs that I want all offer the courses with Bahasa Melayu as the medium of instruction. You’d probably be thinking ‘What the fuck, you’re a bleeding Melayu so don’t fret about that’, I am good at understanding Bahasa Melayu when taught but I swear being understood when I speak formally in Bahasa Melayu is pretty rare.
This time it’s just me and I have no one to depend on. No obligations, this time, the only responsibility I’m holding is one to myself. I can’t let myself down.
Going to work tomorrow, and I don’t want sore bagged eyes to come along with me so I’m staying optimistic.
Wish me luck.
I’m gonna go to school without make-up! Hahaha, well maybe a dash of eyeliner.
Anyways, I did research slightly on Business degrees in Malaysia. Narrowed it down to Economics and this what I got, incase anyone might need it too, here’s an upload of the file with a list of Public and Private institutions in Malaysia offering an Economics degree along with the requirements and tuition fees. But I striked out the not-so-good place la The tuition fee and requirement would be more or less the same to any other Business related degrees just that others besides Economics is being offered in more institutions rather than only the ones I’ve listed.
Ciao loves!
I’ve yet to post my New Year’s resolution and it has been a month!
Here goes:-
No.1 priority: Education.
Make sure my brother gets good results for his PMR.
Not waste one whole year on a person, 2009 is the year of productiveness, education here I come!
Leave 2008 behind. But patch certain things up when opportunity comes.
Appreciate the people I have and love them the way they are.
Get close to God.
Love myself for being placed in this very skin. Do what I love, and not take in account of perceptions from shallow people.
Ma’s agreed to getting me the Macbeth shoes and I don’t hope to be let down. So yay!
Will be doing the Loh Sang tomorrow at Ra’s with Vivien, Najwa and Faiqa. Probably Fifi too. Prosperity, babyyy!
Movie marathon tomorrow! I like stay-ins with my girlfriends
Visit to SriAman tomorrow, to deal with matters concerning education.
I’m addicted to Taylor Swift’s songs. Stay Beautiful is a favourite. But I’m still not sidetracked from my usual Babyshambles, John Mayer, The Cribs, Arcade Fire, okay?
I can’t wait till March. Jason Mraz is still probable, Sunburst too, my SPM results are a definite yes and as scared as I am, I can’t wait for a fresh new start! Other than that, Pete’s out with a new album by then! I love Pete!
Tok Cik called a few nights back and he’s okay with me doing Econs. Hopes for me to be able to fly to LSE but it really depends on my SPM results. I extremely do not want to let my parents, grandparents and Tok Cik down.
The weather these days is just too chilly. It’s chilling up my spines. And I really don’t like it, brrr.
I seem to be really happy these days because I’m really putting the past at the back of my mind. I haven’t gotten rid of them. Yet.
I miss being important! Debates in school tournaments, andd okay that’s probably the only important I was. lol. Heyy, I was an ‘important’ friend too k?
Why does Princess Diana play a vital role as an image we look up to? I’m helping out a friend for a thesis.
I don’t like milk and I don’t drink it at all! But I love soy and yogurt! And that’s a random fact for you!
I had 3 exclamation marks in the previous sentence. Exageratted much.
I think the reason why I’m really happy right now is because I’ve updated my iTunes playlist and I’ve got tonnes of Babyshambles now and Taylor Swift is something new too. Bloc Party, Interpol, Arcade Fire, Wombats, Cribs, here I comeee!~
Peter Doherty’s songs are keeping me happy.
I can’t wait for the next minutes of my life, but it’s not exactly an adventure right now you see. I just am exciiiteeedd.
HAHAH Thank you Ribena, you do me wonders.
Okay, now here’s a song for you to take a lesson from!
I honestly do not want to stop letting out.
Later, loves!
I miss a bunch of jerks right now and it’s not making me feel good 
